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2005-02-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

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goodbye redhalo-, you've been good.

2005-02-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

trust her. love her. cherish her. and when you fall in love with her..... tell her. says:
anyway, PLEASE remove that picture of your nostrils which happen to be in the shape of baked beans. its rather DISTURBING.. its like people expect to see your face there and there you go, putting your nostrils up. *tsktsk

that is sonia for you guys. haha. she's just so hilarious sometimes. was just chatting with her on msn and when i put my status on away, she just couldn't help it but post that. alrighty alrighty, it'll be off in a second (!) - on msn that is. =D

okay so i slept all the way till 145pm this afternoon and i was thinking to myself that things cannot continue the way it is. i eat sleep play lan shop eat sleep play lan shop all day and this might be extremely enjoyable right now but its not gonna be good in the long run i know. aunt cindy told me yesterday that i've put on quite an amount of weight now. oh my gooodiiiieeeee macaroniiii. i need to do something about this. dieting is OUT cos i simply can't live without food. haha yes a glutton i may be, i guess exercising is the only way out. anyway i've always been against the idea of dieting and i don't knwo why. maybe because i love food and i'll always love food. hahahaha.

yesterday was mama's birthday and i swear her asam curry is too damn delicious. mmmm yum yum. it was so gooddddddd i wanted more! but too bad i think wilson and i finished up the last few mouths. so yeah. then we had the yusheng thingy and the cutting of the bday cake. and the cake was super duper good too. i love chocolate rice.

went down town with vina yesterday and we were clad so shabbily. imagine jeans + tank top + flat flat flat slippers. haha i think i'm the slack one lah. but it was so comfy though. anyway, back to th topic of shopping, i've found many things that i wish to purchase but i just have to consider them first cos they involve quite a sum of money which i think i can't afford at the moment. so yeah i think my pay will be all gone in a matter of 3 days after receiving it. so yeah think think think first.

now berber' friends are over playing mahjong. i got a shock when i stepped into the house. anyway, someone left a comment in ber's blog and commented on something really funny. yah lah okay.. we are ugly.. so whatttttt? at least we have people who love us for who we are and awesome boyfriends. haha.

stomach's growling so off i go to serach for food.

2005-02-21T23:03:00.000+08:00

after a million and one attempts to load onto this page, i FINALLY got in.
my com is seriously and majorly screwed up.
so much so that i really wanna slam the whole monitor on the floor!
okay yeah, so i really need a new set of computer badly.
this com is about 5 years old now.. no kidding.

TCC-ed today with berber, peishan & lynn.
tcc/hearts-virgin i am but we had so much fun.
so we slacked there from 1pm all the way till 7pm.
a whole and hearty 6 hours mind you.
mighty joe young + hearts + daidee + bridge + drooling over the tcc's warm lava chocolate cake + a whole dose of laughter is pretty damn good.
so maybe i was wrong about being awkward cos' of the age gap.
a 17-year-old with three 21-year-old isn't that bad afterall.
=)

then i joined wilson, mom & shannon for dinner at the padang restuarant.
woooo, muslim foods are so damn bloody delicious.
and they served a really huge serving of spring chicken.

i've kindda learnt my mistake.
i'm never ever gonna do my hair on impulse ever again.
enough of my "experiment" excuses really.. hee.
haha cos my mom always said "its good to try out new and different hairstyles when you're still young"
so the other day, i re-permed my hair and gave it a new colour.
BAD MOVE, trust me on this.
wait till ya'll see it.. haha and pls don't laugh when you do.

mommy bought a new tv set for shannon.
so now his tv is bigger than that of berber's.
hahahaha, i think my sister has the right to be jealous.

i got knifed 2 times yesterday during lan.
sooooooo sadddddddddddddd.
stupid xiang always attack me when i'm off guard.
i'm never gonna hold an awp and camp anymore! haha.
hey, and i hope i'm improving in my starhubness..
btw, i'm known for being extremely slow is sniping.
oh how much i love playing cs.. haha.

my trademark - BAKED beans hahahaha.

i've got quite a number of other pictures to put up.
but i'm too lazy. maybe tomorrow alright?
yeah and here's another photo for ya'll to view.

wilson /suhaimi / asanul

i've been too much a bummer.
oh and i've quit my job a few days back.
so i think i'm just gonna be a couch potato for the next few weeks.
and not forgetting some retail therapy if possible.. hee.
i bought these 2 really nice tubetops the other day.
one's like cutesy-candy-like, the other's like the laidback loose kind.
nobody really likes it but i really do.
i think i have wayyyy different tastes from others.
i really hate wearing sleeveless nowadays but it was nice.
so yeah, i'm more of a 3quart sleeve / longsleeve / tee kinda person now.
and i'm loving it.
but the weather's spoiling my love for longsleeve now.
blazing sun and the freaking hotttt weather.

meiyan - for being the sweetest girl around, heres a big THANKYOU! i'll give you a ring soon i promiseeeee!!! you're so sweeeeeeeet girl. smucks.

alrighty then.
guess its time i take a breather off the cyber online world now.
goooooodbyeeeeeee.
and yes, goodnight to you as well. =)

2005-02-17T13:56:00.002+08:00

i've figured that if i keep everything to myself, i'll prolly explode one fine day. so right now, i'm just gonna be me. speaking whatever that comes to my mind but of course with, sensitivity. heehee. so i'd better warn some people out there that if you don't wish to hear, boastful or showoffs (according to trish?) entries from me, its better for you not to come in my blog. it'll probably irk you more.

and lets make this clear. i'm not rich. i only have my mother to support all three children up and its not exactly very easy by the way for a women to raise up 3 children with only one income. yes. so quit saying i'm a showoff or whatsoever when i have nothing to showoff about. viewing gucci bags doesnt mean she's getting it right? dang. my dad's the rich one. not me, not my sis, not my bro, not my mom. and unfortunately i don't stay with my dad so that doesn't make us rich either. i hope this is clear.

and i just let my sister read the comments and the paragraph above and guess what her reaction was? she just laughed and said, "dad's not exactly rich what?" SEE!! THERES ABOSULUTELY NOTHING I CAN SHOWOFF ABOUT! i guess she shares my sentiments when people think we're rich or we are such showoffs. blah.

okay on a lighter note now, i'm proud to say this.. and i know baby sure is too. so there you go.. HAPPY 3 YRS BABYYYYYYYYY!!!!! this must have been the toughest time of his life but it sure isn't for me. =D i can't believe how time has flew by so quickly. its been a hell of a rollercoaster ride and slightly nauseating at some point of the ride but hey, whats a relationship without squabbles and fights right? so i guess we're on the right track baby. and we're absolutely normal. heehee. thanks dear for giving your all for this relationship. a relationship that i'll treasure for the rest of my life. je'taime <3

today's gonna be good. i just know it.

2005-02-16T11:07:00.000+08:00

i feel like i've really experienced going to hell and back here where i am. its a really really onerous experience and it was indeed tiring. but hey guess what? i pulled it through and in return, it kindda evolved me into a much more enhanced person. which is goooood don't ya'll think so? i'm soo freaking happy. so so so happy now. and soo at rest.

so lets see, as everyone else ramble on about their romantic and fun-filled valentine's day, i'm just gonna groan and rave about how work has spoilt mine. yes thats right, i had work till 9pm that night and we decided to forgo a dinner since almost every restaurant or whatever food place would have been closed by then. so in the end, we ended up mahjong the night away. and that silly boy couldn't wake up the next day, aunt cindy called up and he had cab home straightaway. hahaha. 6:35am he woke up! and he wasn't late for school. now thats a miracle.

yesterday must have been the best day since the start of the year 2005. it all started out awkward but ended in a big bang boomie blast. oh how i love that boy of mine. (*grins from cheek to cheek) i think only the two of us know what really happened but although the past few days were hell, its all back to the heavenly and blissful us. yeah baby? =) i must be the happiest girl alive.

oh and yes, i finally got a new bag! i so needed that really.. since my old black one is, well firstly old, and its also pretty rusty and spoilt. so yeah thanks baby!! i loveeeeeeee my new crumpler thanks a hell lot! and its tinged in my fav color too. so what nicer bags can i ask for you tell me. haha. and i'm glad he looooveeee his present too. yay. im such a happy girl now.

i'm so happy i feel like some shopping! any takers?

i specially took off on thursday and fri so i can, on thurs go celebrate our anniversary together and finally catch MY MOVIE CONSTANTNE (oh my good lord, keanu reeves!) and spent some good quality romantic time together to make up for stupid vals. haha rightos. then on friday, i can make it down to damai to catch the first match of the season for saints.

oh and by the way, i've taken a liking for keanu reeves since i've watched this show called chain reaction. must have been a decade or so ago. that was how long man. yes i've been watching his show since i was a lil kid.. no kidding! then i remember the show the devil's advocate where he worked as a lawyer and i was swooning over him when i was just 6 or 7 years old i think? haha that was so funny i think my mom thought i was crazy. then came the oh so sweet november which made me cry like a damn river. (oh actually he starred with charlize theron in quite a few movies eh?) anyway back to my list of keanu reeves movies i've watched and well you can say his filmography based on my memory, then came THE MATRIX (including the following sequels of cos! reloaded & revolution) which was pretty yummy don't you think? all =D and i've watched the replacements a couple of times. its about him being a american football captain and yada. and not forgetting the happily ever after with the cheerleading captain. so damn typical but who cares. the watcher made him a dangerous serial killer and that show was pretty thrilling. its quite here and there too if you get me. and then you have something's gotta give where he dates a woman much older than him. haha.

WOW not bad a keanu reeve's fan eh? haha. i'm looking forward to his other movies coming out in 2006 since they are all under pre-production now. well, actually i think thats only like 1/8 of all the movies he starred in cos i'm pretty sure he started his acting career way before i was born. so yeah.

okay am i boring you guys? so maybe i should stop here. BYE! (:

2005-02-14T14:59:00.000+08:00

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

Every time I look at you,
baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I'm all about lovin' you

happy valentine's day wilson.

2005-02-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

once scarred, its really quite difficult to ever forget. i don't know about many but this is definitely the situation i'm in now. i'm trying. trying real hard. lets just hope i don't go berserk from all the trying and everything would be peachyfine.

went for dinner with my family at crystal jade last night and guess who we bumped into? ox's WHOLE family! they occupied like 3 whole tables in crystal jade. and his mom recognised us so we exachanged our greetings and so on. then ox came to greet my parents too. haha. what a coincidence.

i'm still feeling pretty down of late. i don't know.. its like i'm realising and finding out so many things that i kindda think its quite hard for me to handle. its really like everyday i feel that BANG in my heart. like something really heartbreaking or whatever lah.. it just doesn't feel very good. especially when it happens everyday. i wish i could be a better person, then maybe all these wouldn't happen.

on a lighter note, valentine's day is tmr eh? everyone must be busy preparing for it. haha i'm not celebrating vday this year. cos he has training till quite late i think. and i hav work till 9 again. anyway its not really about the celebration right.. and plus, 17th of feb would be a more important date anyway. i already got him soemthing so i hope he'll like it.

alrighty, mom's bugging me to let her use the com to view gucci bags. tsk tsk. did i mention she just splurged on a full set of diamond jewellery in SK and another pair of diamond bangle?!?!?! her excuse? i needed to pamper myself. hahahaha. she's so cute. okay i'm off.

2005-02-11T13:12:00.000+08:00

my lunar new year have been great so far. with all the red packets coming in and all the meeting up sessions with friends and relatives whom i only get to meet once a year, its awesome. its really sad how we only come together when cny is approaching but we distant ourselves every other time. guess everyone's just too busy that we neglect each other. sadly.

first day was spent visiting wilson's paternal and maternal relatives. we stoped buy his mama's place first then we went over to his ahma's place. can you believe it? it was my very first time seeing wilson's ahma. she looks like a photocopy version of aunty cindy. then around the late afternoon, we took a cab down to my ah ma's place.

second day which happens to be yesterday, i went down to mommy's side of relatives. all my granduncles and grandaunts and cousins and nieces. they were so lovely. had the lion dance in sandra's yi yi's place and haylie was so samn cute.

before meeting the rest for lan yesterday, baby and i had a very fulfilling time n swensens indulging in the earthquake. dragged him down cos i was craving for ice cream. then after lan we called xiang down for a few games of mahjong. pretty good day i say.

i've got pictures to put up but daddy left town already. and he forgot to pass us the usb port cable thingy over to us so i just have to patiently wait till he's back. dang. sometimes, i wonder if i'm showered with endless of concerns when i say i'm not feeling well. wow, thats really way too random. haha. getting a little crazy and cranky now. think its too much of sleep.

will you catch me when i fall?
i just sit and wonder.

i hate blogs. cos i can never seem to type what i really want. its like you want to really type out all your feelings but you just can't. cos you know people ar ereading it and you have to be selective in your details. urgh. maybe i should just stop blogging and substitute it with a personal handwritten one.

2005-02-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

its terrible being a female. with the moodswings and all. one moment i'm laughing like a mad cow and the next, feeling all emo and starting to bawl like a baby. no it did not happen in a split second lah, not that bad. its just that i felt the emotions running when one of my friend asked me how i was and so on. it just got me thinking even though i know i shouldn't. thank god for friends. you all know who you are. those who have been there for me and willing to listen to my troubles. i really wished i wasn't born an emo kid. then maybe i need not feel like this all the time. i'm feeling so much better now. i just wished you were here with me.

today was such a bad day. vina left her wallet in the toilet and she couldn't find it after that. i hope the investigation would turn out fruitful. and hopefully the person who took it would at least return her the important documents found inside. a prada wallet gone just like that. vina i hope you're alright girl. i'm not good with words so i couldn't exactly cheer you up much but i did the best i could anyway. =)

while i'm typing this, i'm pretty sure baby's in his deep slumber now. that boy is so poor thing. trainings and matches all the time. making him so tired and slobbish these few days. should do something to freshen him up. its a good thing cny's holidays are here. enough time for him to rest. all those trainings have tuckered him out so much. he deserves a nice good break. hopefully i'll get to see him soon cos i miss him loads. too much has happened but i'm always rest assured he'll be there, for me. and standing by me. i love you baby.

baby love oh baby love

2005-02-07T07:57:00.000+08:00

i met an evil boy yesterday. recalcitrant i say (don't we all just love reading? it improves your vocab especially when you have such a limited one, like me.). but then again i don't even know if i used it correctly so i thought it might be safe to put it in a short sentence. haha.

as i was saying about that boy, its too long a story to tell but you should all be there to witness it. if he ever ever EVER cross my path again, i swear i'll give him two tight slaps. oh and another two for his mother too. i've never seen a child as ill-disciplined as him. what a wreck. and along with that, prolly a kick straight at his balls. i've never been so mean and nasty really. but if you ever cross my limits, thats it man.

wilson's so smart. while bathing yesterday after retrning back from work, he decided to try out his luck to enter my hp's pin code since it got hung (thenokia 7610 sucks. okay maybe its because i never bothered to take care of it but it still suck) and being the smart alec he think he is, he got it wrong and i had to call singtel to give me the PUK code. haha. he's such an ass. but i love him anyway. and like i said, the things happening around me or us no longer will be able to affect me cos i'm loving my life this way, i think.

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

sonia visited me yesterday at work! along with nicky and his brother too but anyway, after seeing her, i realised how much i miss ling! as for simone, i think i get to see her almost everyday! haha. so i'm just looking forward for our next daintys outing. which would be very soon i hope? <33 them so muchies. and that girl is so full of $$$ ka-ching ka-ching man. she trotted in the shop with countless of shopping bags from all the various expensive shops. i wanna gooo shopping too!!! okay girls call me soon. i miss ya all so much.

i'm working full shift today. and shites, i realised my blog entries are starting to get boring and mundane. especially when i start talking about work and work and nothing but work. so people, please help me spice up my life with some of your comment. cos i really feel like the blog's pretty dead. haha okay i'm kidding. just leave me comments if you ever do step in here thanks. and i've got work in one and a half hours time and its time to get readyyyyyy.

2005-02-06T02:29:00.000+08:00

you know how much i love sonia?? i love her THISSSSSSSSSSS MUCH!!! =D

today was a relatively good day. firstly cos i had lunch at some jap restaurant in taka with wilson, mandy, bryan and aunt cindy and we had some good laughter and got to spend some good and quality time together. i mean even though its just for a mere 45 minutes it was really very enjoyable. secondly cos work was pretty alright. the people just kept coming in so sales was good. thirdly cos i got to meet up with meiyan and she's so damn sweet. she actually bought me an oreo cheesecake up to my workplace. thanks babe, i really appreciated that. i owe you one now and no fret, i'll give you a ring soon okay! i promise. and i finally got to play lan after so long. felt good.

everyone in my workplace loves bryan.

being an impulsive shopper, i bought another pair of shoes again. mom's gonna kill me for spending so much for the past few weeks. i'm shocked myself when i calculated my expenditure man. time to start saving real hard to recoup back the money in my atm.

today while serving this bunch of guys, i realised they were attentively watching vina wherever she went the whole time and i just couldn't stop laughing. its pretty damn funny cos they were like "she's coming.. hurry ask lah. not as if its your first time.. blah blah blah" speaking in mandarin. and i just stood there outside the damn fitting room laughing to myself. i think i looked rather silly then. haha. vina ah vina!

and as our energies mix and begin to multiply.

everyday situations, they start to simplify.

2005-02-04T11:54:00.000+08:00

uh huh, life's like this.

uh huh, its the way it is.

been feeling much more relieved these few days. its like you always try to tell yourself - this is life. live the way it is and be happy cos ultimately you can't really choose your fate and plan your life ahead can you? i've been thinking a lot. maybe way too much. but its all good. nothing bad defintely. cos i told myself to continue being the way i am but maybe slightly modified. haha. makes me sound as if i'm some sort of a mechanic item. but no i'm happy that i can well, change i guess. cos i don't wanna be the grumpy and grouchy person i always am. think i took those characters from my mommie. haha but i love my mommie lah. and erm, its good to learn from your past mistakes ain't it? yeah it is. like i said, i think i think way too much. i kindda like to reflect on myself after a hectic day outside. so i just lie in bed and think think think. so there you go. i hope i'm doing the right thing. well wait. i know i am. =)

my sister is the best bitching partner anyone could ever ask for. seriously. we went for 1/2 hr swim just now and macs breakfast and we just talked and talked and talked. i guess every girl feels the same about everything. i think sonia would understand too right? heehee. its like guys have their way of thinking and girls have theirs. they always have something to say about everything which is way different from what we girls think. so the conversation would be quite likely to end up in a debate or quarrel whereby both parties have things to say and rebutt back. i hope you all understand what i'm typing cos im getting blur myself. im not good in expressing my feelings in words anyway cos basically im just not good with words. so yeah.

i guess this was one good catching up and bonding session with my dearest sister after the longest time. and honestly, i wouldn't ask for a better sister. a sister whom i can take nonsensical pictures with. a sister whom i can speak my mind to. and a sister to call me her toto. i love you berber!! smucks*

2005-02-03T01:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BDAY SHAR!! (:
if i can't attend your bbq on fri,
i'll pass you your present another day alright?
have lotsa fun then!
smucks*

simone came to visit me at my workplace today.
i made her fell in love with a bag.
trying to con her to buy it cos it'll be put under my sales!
haha im kidding babe.
i was pretty irritable today and a tad bit grouchy.
i hate my manager. i really do.
no one orders me around & scolds me when i really didn't deserve that at all.
grrrr. everyone hates her.

then i went to visit my maid, calor, after work today.
whahahaha, she's so cute.
then i met baby downstairs my place.
and he came up for dinner.
we kindda settled for maggie mee so yeah.

i'm beginning to think that i've matured.
even though its a little bit, i think i am.
thank god for that level up.
or else i wouldn't know how to pull through this.
every obstacle will be a challenge.
(one at my doorstep soon)
and it'll be an opportunity for me to learn and mature.
see, i'm a baby no more!

i hope i can wake up tmr mrng for a swim with berber.
then i'll go for lunch and head down to work.
hopefully it'll not be too rushed.

calor >>
what counter?? anyway it doesnt matte rlah.. hopefully my mommie can get it for me! (:

pass >>
yeah every relationships have their problems and im aware of that. we're fine now. thanks for concerning. i hope yours is solved and moving on fine too.. take care.

passer >>
its all about give and take. and to be understanding. its difficult sometimes but you just gotta do it.

aniv >>
weeee. i want the brown one now! the one with the ribbon in front (the one which you like in black!) im still thinking if i should get it.

roxy >>
eh why ac? well im not sure. i reckon im not jc material so prolly going to a poly. it all depends really. who knows i might even go abroad. you all going back on cny eve?

2005-02-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

PICTURES

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went shopping with baby today in suntec. wanted to get my levi's but they ran out of my size. shites. but never mind. i'll get mommie to get it for me cos i already took down the code number and all the necessary info. so i only managed to purchase a top from esprit. pretty unsuccessful and fruitless shopping trip. but i had fun.

today will be my only off day for the week. gonna slog like an ox for the rest of the week. and i don't get to attend sharmin's bbq, baby's rugby matches because of work. ths is so sad. i'm rather deprived of many things right now. but for the pay cheque, i shall cont'd.. =D

i guess everything's solved now. and i'm glad.. vastly glad.

you're the million reasons why

there's a burning flame inside

there ain't nothing that i wouldn't do for you

there is nothing sweeter than this love

i'll try to make this last

you're the missing piece that fix my heart together

meme >>
i don't even know if i have one for imagestation cos i never used it before. anyway why?

meiyan >>
never forget lah dear.. but my time there was very rushed. so sorry!

pass >>
oh tpc. no wonder.. i havent taken my height for a long time now. why?

roxy* >>
HEY! thanks for dropping by girl.. hows life in sa? well take care alright. and i'll see ya around.
the_reason >>
huh what clothes?

carol >>
i think its the contacts lah calor.. haha. you come and see for yourself lah. cos different ppl got diff taste what. to me, im not a big fan of my shop. but i like the shoes haha.

2005-01-31T13:14:00.000+08:00

" hard to breathe, feels like floating.

so full of love, my heart's exploding.

mouth is dry, hands are shaking;

my heart is yours for the taking.

acting weird, not myself -

dancing around like the Keebler elf.

finally time for this poor schlub

to know how it feels to fall in love.. "

i've been so emotional lately. as in really emotional. so maybe i shouldn't think so much and just move on. life's like this ain't it? so i just gotta live with it and face up to reality. once bitten twice shy. i should have known. i was on the verge but i'm just glad things got better. at least i know what i'm supposed to and not supposed to do now.

you know i have the wierdest people adding me on friendster. this time round its wilson's coach. not that i don't know him.. in fact i talk to him every now and then but its just wierd.

yesterday, angela (my pretty pretty ijtp senior), came down to my workplace and bought a pair of shoes for herself. haha she's so damn cute you know! then she told me about jean's bday and all which reminds me to announce it here.. HAPPY BELATED BDAY JEANMOMMY!!! i love you plenty plenty yeah! (:

cny is around the corner and i'm not done with my cny shopping. i seriously need to purchase a new pair of jeans and another top really soon. wilson has like a levi's + 10 freaking tops to match it with so he'll prolly need another bottom or two soon.

kindda blew another small hole in my pocket yesterday. spent 82 bucks on a long sleeve button down shirt + a normal tee shirt for baby yesterday cos he bought me my pretty shoes. anyway thanks baby for the shoes. it was so sweet of you. you know i love you no matter what happened. i'm just gonna put the past behind me so please just be yourself and do what you normally will do cos ultimately, you have your own choice and freedom. alrighty? ilu.

i know i look super duper fair but i'm like that. and will always be. its like somehow i can't seem to get darker or tanner even if i do go tanning or whatsoever. cos eventually, i'll start peeling and *tada* back to the white old me. haha ok i sounded pretty lame.

AND I CAN'T SEEM TO RESIZE THE PICTURES PROPERLY. SO PLEASE REFER TO WILSON'S BLOG FOR THE NORMAL SIZING OF THE PICTURE. (although he have a really embarrassing picture of me when i was in the car to KL and i just woke up!) THANKSSSSS.

currently
spinning : the wonders - that thing you do
wearing baby's boxers + his pe teeshirt
emotionally drained but still happy

2005-01-26T11:50:00.000+08:00

ELEKTRA was good even though it was quite a short movie. the effects were pretty good and plus, jennifer garner looked so vavavoom. i've liked her since one of her first movies she starred in that i actually watched so there you go. you can say i'm pretty much a jennifer garner fan =)

now there, how can you resist jennifer garner????

finally got some time off from work and catch a movie with baby. we had lunch and the normal walking around before we left for our movie. then i stayed over at his place and came home this morning. now, waiting for shannon boy to come home before i scoot off to work.

bao >> hey girl, yeah its been a long time. do take care alright? and sorry i don't feel comfortable disclosing where i'm working so maybe you'll knwo when you see me around. (:

her. >> thats so sweet of you, thanks.

meiyan >> no problem sweetie!! i should thank you instead for always being there for me.

amanda >> i can't say it here dear.. haha sms me!!!

pass >> where did you see me?? oh my, is that a good thing or a bad thing cos i can't seem to help it really. so sad. anyway thanks yeah (:

carol// >> what pearl stards ah calor??

2005-01-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

i just bombed a bloody big hole in my pocket.

strict budget plan for the next week.

and mom bought 4 handbags in a matter of 2 days.

talk about compulsive shopping.

2005-01-24T11:50:00.000+08:00

HOWDY YA'LL!

its been a helluva week for me. i don't even know what should i start with. so i shall start with my trip to KL & genting with my daddy dearest and daling sister berber and the gf of daddy.

it was tad bit of shopping overdose*. so much so that i'm kindda afraid of shopping too much now. can you believe it? we were there 3 days and this is what berber and i got.

10 tops
3 shorts (of which the roxy and fos one is berber's)
1 levi's jeans
1 p&co skirt
1 converse sneakers
2 boxers for the bfs
1 quiksilver wallet for nnon
2 quiksilver belt + wallet combi for the bfs
1 pair of funny white framed shades
6 mths supply of contacts

considering the fact that it was only a 2-3 days trip, that was pretty damn much stuffs bought. we could have shopped more but most of the clothes aren't very me. most of the stuffs bought belongs to both berber and i. its a good thing we sisters are about the same in size. we get to share clothes. i love her so damn much. she brought so much joy to me in this trip. and so did daddy.. myy dearest daddy. i shall not comment further about the other one.

oh and last but not least, i have to mention this. daddy brought us to some club in KL. and this woman puked all over me!!!! can you imagine how fucking pissed off i was?? and it was so damn bloody disgusting. i had like chunks and pieces of her dinner on me! oh my god, its a good thing i wasn't in a foul mood. or i would have gone up to her and scolded the shit outta her. or maybe even slap the fuck outta her. berber had it on her face. and dad had it all over his shirt. too bad for me cos i was in the middle. urgggh.

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been working too. its been less tiring compared to the first few days lah but work's pretty fun with my colleagues around. and i've people visiting me! haha jean and elgene came yesterday and they gave me a shock really. then i have danielle and peizhen whom i saw for the 2nd time in the shop. and jennihuaaaa!! haha she came next to me and went "boo!" in this low and mysterious voice. stupid girl. its been eons since i last saw her. then i saw dern and wyna and etc etc etc. and simone's working near me too. wow!

vina's off today while i'll be starting work at 3pm. its a good thing i don't start early cos i'm kindda drained from work. lack of sleep leads to huge buldging eye bags. its so bad i can almost feel my eyes swollen. i need some eye gel mask or something. haha.

so lets see how my cny shopping have completed so far. i only got a red top and a skirt and a pair of shoes. so i need a bag badly. and i'm gonna buy that sisley bag tomorrow using my own money! i'm determined to buy that. its really like a normal bag you see off the streets except that the material is so nice. and delicate somehow. and i need another set of clothes.

okay too long a entry now. bye.

2005-01-15T05:35:00.000+08:00

just call my name

and i'll be there..

today was just awesome.

i slept all the way till 2pm this afternoon and it was so freaking shiok. the thought of waking up and having no work is so damn good. heehee. then my dearest darlingest brother cooked me lunch as i lazed around and watched mtv and cartoons. i love shannon.

then i scooted off to meet jamie, simone and christopher at novena. first time meeting simone's boyfriend and he's really nice. they're so sweet together. made me miss wilson more. and i finally got a chance to meet up with my all time taitai loupo. haha so high class lah that girl. dior bag matched with the same dior wallet. wooo, and she looked so tall with those heels. i've learnt my lesson - next time out with jamie, i'm determined to wear heels so i won't look so short and she would just admit that she's shorter than me! haha i'm kidding lah. i love ya babe!

we went down to lips for dinner and totally pigged out on the pasta, baked rice, mash potato and wedges. it was pretty okay but the best part was all the talking and catching up session. intended to play pool but instead we just decided to walk around town doing nothing. so chilled out at some smoothie place while i indulged in strawberry banana smoothie, yet again. haha i'm so in love with it.

then i went over to borders to meet up with dick and vina at about 11+pm and we mad eour way down to cine to play a little bit of lan. which by the way was pretty good cos i got to knife dicker. haha. and there were so many headshots. the girls beat the guys (dick and some ah fu guy) flat. bahahahaha!! ;p

then we hung around and met xiang at the prata shop at 2am. eat eat talk talk laugh laugh and now i'm finally home at 5am+. going into a deep slumber very soon. thanks xiang, dick and vina for sending me home! really appreciated that guys! (:

today was fun but the only thing missing is the company of my baby. i miss him so damn much i just want him to be back right now. he called me while i was out just now and i was soooo elated to receive his call. 2 more days now. i wanna surprise him with something when he's back but what to buy? i don't know yet. we'll see.

i have work tomorrow. aargh freaking boring. but i have to bear with it for the time being since i'm so damn broke. mommy's really nice these days. she just gave me 40 bucks the other day cos she was afraid my allowance would not be enough to last me for for the week. cos after i started working, i would have to eat out for almost all my meals. and town's food aren't exactly very cheap eh? oh well.. strawberry fields smoothie is enough for me. heh heh.

to meme : actually the fact is, i really don't know her name cos right from the start, i've been calling her jiejie and nothing else. so sorry. and even if i know, i doubt i'll say it out here.

to carolina : stupid sayang carol!! never cook for me (your ma'am somemore!) maggie mee!! haha yeah i could see your face then. looking so blur and confused when looking at me. its the make-up lah.. so annoying. stupid work place with stupid regulations to wear make-up. haha now that i've visited you, i expect a good treat from you! be ncie to your ma'am ah! =D

to butterfly : eh sorry.. its not that i don't wanna disclose it but theres no need for people to know right? anyway its just in the town area lah.

currently :
- dressed in some big ugly tioman tee with fbt shorts
- missing wilson low so much :(
- spinning // nelly feat christina aguilera - tilt ya head back
- dreading work tomorrow

2005-01-14T15:08:00.000+08:00

berber's layout is soo cute.
haha just like her!!

2005-01-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

him in pulau ubin

missing him so damn much :(

so baby left after school this morning. i'm missing him so much. he called awhile ago to ask how i was and how was work and stuffs like that. i feel so loved and i feel like i'm cared for. sunday will come soon. i've got that 5 hours to catch up and spend time together before i leave. hee, i love my smelly bum. and he finally blogged. can you believe it?? hahaha.

work was pretty okay today. my sales were the best today and i'm happy for that. then huang biren came in and bought some stuffs. she's so tall, slim and pretty. haha. then vina and i had to clear and re-pack certain stocks. its definitely better than standing outside and serving customers. cos we get to sit and slack.

you know what keeps me awake during work? the constant vibrations from my handphone (its kept in my pocket 24/7) and new zealand natural's strawberry fields smoothie. haha i'm so sorry but i'm really crazy over that drink. ask wilson. ask vina. oh, and dick too.

dick and vina picked me up from work today. haha how sweeeet right? thanks guys. cos vina ended work at 5 and they went for a movie. so after the movie ended, they came to pick me up. and we bumped into russell charles (st andrew's principal's son) and he was really friendly. he talked to us for awhile while we were all in the train.

i hate hate hate to put make-up! it feels as if my skin cannot breathe and its just sooo clogged up. urgh. haha the funny thing is that vina and i kindda suck at applying make-up so we always take about half an hour in the toilet trying really hard to apply it. so damn mah fan and annoying. the lig gloss annoys me cos my hair would always stick to my damn lips.

tomorrow's my off day. THANK GOD!! and its friday! so i hope we can play lan at night.. heehee. but it'll be different without baby around. sobs. and furthermore, i'm working next friday! urgh. and vina's off then. urgh.

AND I MET MY DAINTYS LAST NIGHT!!! we went for dinner at whompoa and it was a good catching up. we are all working now and its quite funny to see how each of us have matured a level up. simone's work is quite slack. sonia's like such a hot office girl! and ling's work sounds pretty interesting. ahhh i missed them so much you know! heehee. we had like beef kuay teow, hokkien mee, bbq chicken wongs, oyster omelette, etc. mmmm yummy. i love ya'll so much cos you girls always never fail to make me SMILE! (:

then being a santa claus i always am (haha!), i bought some tidbits and food for the low family. then i stayed over and i hugged baby to sleep the whole night cos i know i'm gonna miss him. :( and this morning uncle alex sent me home.

i can't believe i just typed out just a long entry. i'm off.

2005-01-12T01:20:00.000+08:00

spinning : linkin park ft jay z - numb encore

so work have been pretty tiring for the past 2 days. just gotta get used to standing for long hours i guess. i've learnt quite a lot from the staffs there.. very nice people i'm working with. i've met 3 so far - aida, jane and stella. i'm just glad i have vina there too, my lunch mate and buddy to count on during work. and i have yet to meet one more staff though.

the customers that come in are very extreme. we have tai tais to teenage school girls to big shot man with bodyguards. can you imagine? that guy had like 2 bodygaurds waiting outside for him to finish shopping. haha we were all so afraid to serve him.

anyway baby came to fetch me from work today. that silly boy insisted even though he has to wake up like 6 the next day. then we went for dinner/supper at lorong 5 cos i was starving and i finished work at 9 today. and he's currently sleeping in the room now. thanks baby! i know you wanted to spend more time with me before you leave. i love you!

my leg's aching from all the standing. and i met MICHIE SWEETUMS* today! haha i missed her so much. she look so pretty now okay! michieeeeee, i'll go visit you soon ok! (:

meeting my daintys for dinner tomorrow then i'll be staying over at wilson's place. he's leaving for KL this thursday with his rugby team. so i wanna spend time with him. cos when he comes back on sunday, it'll be my turn to leave for KL the following day with dad and berber for our shopping trip. so unlucky. then friday, i'll be meeting up with simone and jamie! weeeee!! yay jamie, finally eh!! =D

and now to the replies, i'll just do it all now. the pics are gone cos i just don't think i should put it up. and i'm sorry i don't think i wanna disclose where i'm working at. sorry! i'll get scolding from my manager.. haha. serious. erm and why do you wanna know what my dad's gf's name is?? yeah thats all for now.

2005-01-10T07:23:00.000+08:00

i'm using the computer at such an ungodly hour again. this time its because uncle alex sent me home while sending wilson and mandy to school. this explains why i'm so wide awake. couldn't sleep at all last night. was tossing and turning in bed for about 2 hours plus before i actually and finally got to sleep. i'm quite surprised i don't even feel sleepy now.

wanted to go running earlier on at around 7am but wilson didn't allow me too. he said i'll be dead beat by the time i'm supposed to report for work. haha.

just the other night, i had this really terrible terrible dream that made me bawl like a baby all morning. wilson had to coax me back to sleep but i just kept crying and crying cos it was just so scary. i really do hope this dream does not come true. more like nightmare man. i'm gonna treasure my brother and hug him when i see him everyday.. :)

i was just talking to bryan yesterday and i realised that he has grown up so much already. i mean we could hold a proper conversation and he was even telling me about his day in school. he's currently 3 going on 4 but he talks like he's 5. haha he just kept complaining to me about this naughty boy in school called edwin that kept scolding him "teng teng", whatever that is really. haha so cute. and now he attends chinese speech and drama classes to improve his chinese. i just can't wait for him to grow up. but yet seeing him as a child is just as amusing. he's like my baby brother now cos i've spent all 3 years watching him grow up.

dearest loupo,
i was reading your blog when tears welled up in my eyes. i miss you too girl!! so so so much. i haven't seen you in the longest time and i really miss all your nonsensical rubbish you always spout. haha i'm kidding babe. i miss chilling out with you at some coffee place. i miss going crazy shopping with you. i miss going out for lunch with you and how you always hate going to smelly and smokey hawker centres or coffeeshops. i miss entering all those highly branded shops with you and acting like we're rich kids ourselves. i miss chit-chatting with you on the phone and you complaining about everything bad that happened in your life. i just miss you lah!!! :( now that you have your commitments in jc, i promise i'll meet you up soon like after your school or something okay? thanks for being part of my life loupo. i love you so much. smucks*

my lackadaisical lifestyle will have to be stopped from today onwards. no more idling around anymore cos i'm like starting work today. argh, so boring. but thank God that i have vina with me! haha going through whatever i'll be going through as well.

my thoughts are so random and i apologise for that.

and now to the replies (damn, im so lazy!) :

WEDNESDAY

- >> thanks (: and you take care too alrights.

passrbyy >> yeah ive been trying to ignore but sometimes they just cross my limits and i just have to speak my mind, but thanks yeah (:

anon >> yeah, he's doing his o's this year.

lola >> thanks a bunch lola. i think you're really nice. haha. thanks for all your comments cos i really appreciate them and they make me always wanna smile. thanks (:

nurulia >> yeah i'll never stop smiling! =D thanks!

carol// >> haha thanks babe!! you're a sweetiepie youself! take care alright! and work hard and earn those bucks girl! (:

passerby >> oh its the normal one from mango.

passerby >> well good for you then cos seriously, why do you people always think of things like "turn me on" and shit like that? photos are for memories yes, and thats not the main purpose why all these photos are taken so keep your assumptions and comments to yourself.

FRIDAY

michelle >> i miss you too sweetums*! and yes we gotta meet up soon although right now you leave so far from me!! heehee. take care!

andrea >> you take care too. about the modelling thingy, you must be kidding me.

simonesimone >> i'll go visit you soon trink*! but in the meantime, work hard and earn enough money for our next shopping spree!! haha (:

Keiran >> wow, first time you actually dropped me a message. haha take care and hope to see you soon alright? think lan!

anonymous >> erm ok i'll check it out for you again cos it was my brother who downloaded it. maybe you can send me your email address and i'll get back to you?

the good ol` passrby - >> hey! haha yes i've been blogging for awhile now. thanks yeah! (:

kep >> don't be insecure. be happy for who you are cos ultimately, who gives a heck what others think! alright? everyone has their own insecurities and i have mine too. but just don't let others' opinions take its toll on you. live the way you wan too! the galleries are off cos apparently leaving them up will cause me a whole load of dissing. haha (:

2005-01-07T13:53:00.000+08:00

i fucking hell puked out a whole bucket full of nasty shit. okay maybe not bucket but a whole lot of nasty shit! and i'm feeling weak all over cos my stomach's going against me and everything seems to be churning inside. so freaking uncomfortable.

it must be last night's tuna. i was basically just doing simone's recipe by adding onion's and thousand island into the tuna. then i took out the dressing from the fridge and thought to myself "why is this thousand island yellow?" then berber said "aiyah its about this colour lah" but apparently not right now. urgh! to think i still ate 3/4 can of that tuna.

spoilt my plan to job hunt and go to the gym today. =(

replies another time okay? i'm too tired.

thank the lord today's a friday. i mean i can finally spend time with the smelly bum and besides that, its lan tonight! woohoo. haha i think the craze is going slightly overboard but who cares. its so fun! haha. and i hope supper at newton tonight too although i'm so damn broke. i wanted to go out with $5.30 today to last me till night time. see how broke i am! and my ez-link card is left with only $2+ which means i have to top it up soon. sobss.

okay anyway i'm off to paragon soon. gonna give in the application form to the very nice lady. then vina would be off to meet dick while wilson's in sajc playing his all out for the SAJC vs SAS game. then i'll meet him tonight. okay toodles!

2005-01-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

spinning : blaque - questions

see lah, i knew leaving the links to my online galleries would cause much dissing so i was hesistant at first but i still left it there. but now, no more links! no more pictures! haha. maybe only a few occasionally.

lets do the replies first:

aniv* - yeah we are all lazy to work girl but for the money issue esp for lan, we have too! hope we get the same jobs!! nick - haha! i'll take care of your gf as much as i can so pls study hard in sch! :( - no i dont, but sometimes you can't help it if it appears like that right? nice - the green top's a present from wilson and the green skirt's from heeren (i can't rmb the shop name) but it sells all those island-like long flowy skirts and pants. hey there - i just went for a few job interviews not sure at the moment till at least one company calls. anon - st andrews secondary school. hey - yes they're divorced. why? passerby - with passers-by like you, i pity all those blog owners. anyway you can say what you want and nobody will bother seriously. you don't even know what a damn porn star does and you don't even have a name to start with. anyway no more links now, you must be vastly glad! (:

yesterday was tiring but good. i met vina early at wisma's macs yesterday to start our day with the papers. doodling around and circling all those possible contacts. we looked like those working adults that recently got sacked and are in desperate need to find another job. oh wells. we searched high and low for any vacancies there were so i hope we would at least get a good and fun job each. yes.

then we met dick and wilson in cine for lunch. after vina's constant whining about that LV belt, i thnk i'm starting to fall in love with it too. but i still like that LV braaaaa or whatever that was!!! its so pretty, right vina? haha. and i tried pretty shoes in OG that i very much like and would love to get it soon. dragged those 2 bums around and they were so restless. so vina and i did most of the look-see while they always try to find seats in the shop or nearby the shops we visit. bums!! =)

my life's getting so boring cos half the time wilson has to be in school. and next week, the stupid school's bringing them to KL for some rugby games. but i guess i have to be more understanding lah huh?? must always remind myself - "his season is coming and i must always give him the room to breathe so he can do what he likes and is passionate about" yes clarissa yes. (:

think it's about time i go wash up before mandy arrives. she's coming over soon so we can go down to j8 for some dessert. i'm soooo hungry!! and i just woke up about 20 minutes ago. now, I'M a bummer. oh mandy has arrived so byeeeee!!!

2005-01-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

every little thing that you do
baby i'm amazed by you

school officially starts today and as queer as this sounds, i somewhat miss attending school. so i stayed over at baby's last night and slept all the way till 3pm this afternoon. i found out i was all alone at his place so i got up washed up and made my way home.

gonna go watch kung fu hustle with baby later on. like finally i get to catch a movie with him cos we haven't done that in a gazillion years. oh actually we did catch ocean's twelve with the rest but that doesn't count. haha.

i finally got my ass to upload all the pictures i took over the past few weeks and here they are.

christmas day !

sentosa on the 28th !

on the way back home from sentosa !

im so lucky to have you baby !

bday dinner with his family at captain's table
more pictures up on the links.

OHHH I WANNA DANCE WITH SOMEBODY
I WANNA FEEL THE HEAT WITH SOMEBODY
YEAH I WANNA DANCE WITH SOMEBODY
WITH SOMEBODY WHO LOVES ME

will be going job hunting with vina tomorrow so laters !

2005-01-02T11:49:00.000+08:00

howdy' all !

i'm up pretty early today cos daddy called and we're going for brunch soon at crystal jade. but right now, we're just all getting ready and wilson's here beside me wearing his belt. haha.

i'm glad mommy LOVE her christmas present from all of us. we bought her a coffee maker from starbucks and a bag of ground coffee beans. so every morning, she comes up to us and go "anyone want coffee??" haha she's so happy.

so anyway lan last night was alright. dick, vina, jus, berber, baby and i went down to crc at about 11+pm for some lan. played like crap but wth, i was feeling so uncomfortable with that bloated tummy. ber and jus joined us in a game of cs before they played c&c. overall - good.

found out a lot of things last night which i don't know if i should be happy about since i really wanted to know but oh well, i just have to live up to reality don't i? sigh.. i don't know what to say now but i just want to let that smelly bum know that i loved him in the past, now at the present and will always be loving him in the future. <333 smucks*

2005-01-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

goodbye 2004, hello 2005 !

first of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR guys! wow, time sure flies. a blink of an eye and the year has past by so quickly. so now, we all have to look forward and live 2005 to the fullest instead of looking back on the setbacks we experienced in 2004. but of course, we don't forget all the good memories and happenings that we all own from 2004.

i'm pretty sure 2005 would be a great year for me.

so how did i spend my new year's eve? i spent it at party world's ktv in shenton way with a bunch of noisy lads! haha. lets name all of them. dick, vina, sam, sharmin, jo, gene, weiliang, xiang and of course the smelly bum wilson. we sure had a great time there but singing with them can be quite a torture too cos when they get hyper.. thats it for your poor ear drums. we werer there from 11 at night till 4am in the morning.

then we walked from tanjong pagar (sp?) all the way to bloody orchard road! can you believe it? it's actually not quite a big deal but imagine getting lost in the process and walking one whole big round in the CBD area when we could have just walked staright all the way. haha but we'r not worse off. sam, gene, jo, wl had to jog all the way home!

but before ktv, we met in the morning and had some form of exercise with the same group of people. we booked 2 courts in hougang for a game of badminton. now my right arm is aching like shit. i haven't been exercising for a long long time. i miss training.

after which we made our way down to crc to play yet another clan match with sadisticx. hahaha. oh oh! i killed 3 of them with glock okay! 3 headshots somemore!! woohoo. that was like one of my best play lah. don't ask me if its tyco or what but i was really nervous at that time. it was a 3 v 1 thingy and none of my teammates were alive except me! so it was kindda stressful you know.. haha but woohoo!! 3 headshots with brust fire okay!! =D

then met aunt theresa and uncle chong with my family for dinner at geylang's no signboard. we had like lobster salad, buttered cereal crayfish, chilli crabs, 8 bamboo clams (which cost about $10 for one btw), etc. WAH SHIOK! anyway, by the time it ended baby and i had to rush like mad home to get ready and leave to meet them for ktv.

so that was my new year's eve for you.

my new love - GUI HUAAAAAAA!!!

replies:

ling >>
thanks babe. i can't wait to see you!!!! (:

carol >>
yah la! sorry for not visiting you cos i haven't been to town for ages. i'm doing good. you??

anonymous >>
try blogskins?

passerby >>
you downloaded the 3d one? that is the cs movie you downloaded i think. you should d/l steam instead.

2004-12-30T13:43:00.000+08:00

there's always that one person

that will always have your heart

i hope baby enjoyed himself on his birthday althought the rain kindda ruined our sentosa plan. but nonetheless, we still went on and enjoyed ourselves.

then we rushed back home to change for dinner with his family. drove all the way to tuas area for dinner. the ambience and scenery is sooo beautiful. its like by the sea with all the private yachts parked there. we had our dinner at captain's table, a very very grand-like chinese restaurant. so we had th typical chinese dishes like shark's fin, scallops, hor fun, pork's knuckle, etc. it was goooooood and i was like bloated to the max after that.

then we went over to IMM so uncle alex could buy the toy gun and gun powder. and of course baby's cake. so we celebrated in mama's place and that stupid boy wiped his creamy finger on my face! so wanting to take revenge, i chased him all over the house and ended up with a swollen and bleeding finger. haha, my finger got slammed by the door. it was so painful i kindda broke out in tears.. so funny. bryan got scared he cried too. haha. so drama.

i'm sick, again. this is soo frustrating. i always fall sick so easily. my fever reached 39.6 yeaterday and i could hardly walk. i had this throbbing headache that was out to kill me. i was acting like a real spoilt brat who can't do anything but my babyboy never fails to be there to take care of me. he did everything with me. he could have slept in the aircon room last night but he chose to sleep in the living room with me. and he had a game yesterday and was so tuckred out but he took the time and sponge me so very patiently. thanks dear!! (: smucks*

yeahh >> he got 6 points.

debs >> i decided to take them off. there will still be pictures up sometimes.. (:

angels >> thank you but like i said i decided to take the links off.

passerby >> i thinks its digital perm. i did it at my father's friend's shop in aljunied.

* >> nope, the tongue piercing didn't hurt.

amanda >> yes dear, we'll meet up soon okay!

hey >> didn't manage to get in for the first three mths.

weii* >> wow, that was one long comment. thanks anyway. erm, i took off the galleries cos i thought that maybe i should just keep my blog on a "low profile" and just leave it simpl and neat. (:

passerby >> she was back alrdy when all these happened, thank God.

gona >> heehee, HAPPY NEW YR babe!

2004-12-27T01:45:00.001+08:00

my christmas was a blast.

eve was spent in wil's place. its like dinner + supper + alcohol + gambling (poker). it was all good. then aunt cindy gave me her xmas present for me. (:

christmas itself was spent going down to ps to get wilson's new phone. he got the nokia 6770 which has almost the same function as mine. heehee. then we went down to braddel to meet my old good friend (audrey chia if you rmb her) and exchanged our xmas gift. i got her the triumph glamour undies. woooo pretty. anyway dinner was spent at my place. it was a BLAST! x) the food and company were great (think turkey, roast beef, big sakae sushi set, log cake, brownies, etc ohh yummy*). after which at 3am, we met dick and vina for lan along with shannon. crazy right! haha.

the past few days have been great. we celebrated vina's birthday on the 23rd and we caught ocean's ~~eleven~~ twelve which was pretty damn good. i loved the whole plot and the slight twist of the outcome/ending. i give it 4 out of 5 stars. so anyway back to vina's bday. we surprised her with a secret recipe cake at her house somewhere at night and we all bunked over after a hearty dinner of KFC, pizza hut and satays! played online cs through the night.. haha.

can't remember anything else that happened for the past few days already but in general, the past few days have been peachy fine. and i'm sure the upcoming days as well because we're gonna party like hell before school term starts next month.

dick's house tomorrow morning and sentosa the next day. will be bunking over at dick's place tomorrow so we can celebrate the pig's birthday! and we'll be baking a few cakes tomorrow. sounds like fun doesn't it? whahaha. alrighty, think i better log off now. kindda losing the blogging spirit already.. haha. so lazy and all. oh well. goodnight all.

2004-12-22T14:52:00.000+08:00

i'm in mandy's account user blogging right now cos wilson's account user is far too screwed up. its like i can't seem to blog at all and its in chinese. haha. soooo many things to blog about cos my life has been pretty fun these few days. been going out almost every single day to all parts of singapore if you ask me.

the other day we went down to sun plaza and lot 1 to shop although there was absolutely nothing to buy. then we decided to visit vina cos firstly she was sick and secondly we were in choa chu kang so we decided to pop by. dick and vina was like "we go fetch you from senja" but wilson and i were like "oh no, we can find our way. just tell us the block and unit number" cos wilson claimed he was street smart and good in directions which was an absolute nono cos i wasd the smart one who found our way there in no time. hahaha. we watched shrek and played online cs there. x)

then we all watched all those cs movies and was tempted to go down crc to play. so we went to meet xiang at 12 midnight all the way from choa chu kang to toa payoh. I KNIFED WILSON THREE TIMES!!! haha he was so pissed off about it but oh well. he always suay suay stand in front of me so of course the natural thing you'll do is to take your knife out and knife him right? haha sorry baby. he's so keen on taking revenge now. bleah.. haha.

then the other day i finally met my beautiful ones - my DAINTYS.

thats us in chomps. all gathered after a long day. sonia had work before that and ling went for a job interview and i was out and so was simone. so we were practically dead tired after meeting each other but we had so much fun! and good food! right? (: we even had to resort to playing "open numbers" to finish up our food. awwww, i love you girls so damn much!! then simone joined dick, vina, wilson and i for lan. whahaha. the girls rock!

simone: have fun in phuket!!! (:

thats my daddy and ah ma for you. (:

went to grandma's place yesterday to celebrate dong ze (sp?). so we had tang yuen and all. my grandma is soooo cute. nor forgetting my adorable cousins. hmmmm. then we went to fetch them from school and i swear crystal have grown so much prettier. then at night i went to wilson's grandma's place for more tang yuen. heeheee. i love family gatherings and i feel so good when i see families come together to eat tang yuens together.

chelsea / crystal

i love my berber so damn much too.

okay i guess i'm done with all these blogging. i've got soooo many photos to put up but i haven't renamed them so i'll probably put up the link the next time i blog. till then..

HAPPY ADVANCED 16TH BIRTHDAY VINA!!

we'll all see ya tomorrow! ocean's twelve! x)

2004-12-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

wham bam alakazam

WHAO! it had been one helluva night last night. so many (and overflowingly) funny and hilarious moments that happened that i just can't seem to recall them altogether. just imagine 4 drunk and wasted people in ox's huge living room playing poker and getting high. reaaal high. in celebration for their good results for their N's. but eventually, ox himself also KO-ed cos that boy drank almost the whole bottle of XO and by the way, he's a pretty good drinker so you can imagine how much the guys drank. the stupid things you do when you're drunk.

i swear my mommy can make a living by selling pork poriddge for the rest of her life. its so damn bloody good. so it was a scallop-pork porridge and wilson missed out on it. cos he was supposed to come over after his rugby dinner in police acadamy but he said smtg about having to stay home cos no one is (and i was half asleep when he called me so i cannot rmb anything. oops.) home. so anyway, i was hungry and decided to eat his last share. and NOW, the silly boy wants to come over. soo, too bad! *sticks out tongue*

the clan match today against EOD was good but nerve-wrecking esp during the start of it. i think we won all 6 rounds by quite a lot. then some unkown clan in crc asked for a friendly and this time round, we got thrashed under their palms man. but it was a good experience cos once again, we all learn new things everyday don't we? with pros like mr.predator (jo!) and mr.ox (xiankai!), how can we not learn anything? haha.

and now, baby's buying supper back! prata again anyone?

simone >>
i miss you too girl. so much happened for the past few weeks and we haven't seen each other for what? since the hols started??? :( i miss you. i miss the daintys. MONDAY!!!!! yay!!!

carol >>
hey babe! all work's tiring lah.. but at least you can look forward towards payday! haha the day all your efforts would pay off cos with all that $$$$, you can shop till you drop man. x) tell me where soon okay! so i can go visit you!! (:

anon >>
hope of God singapore.

a >>
same age as me, 16.

2004-12-17T14:50:00.000+08:00

i am so super proud of wilson low kian mung (: hearing his enthusiastic and trigger happy voice when he called, made me feel relieved too. haha. now he can party away till school starts next term. but right now, i'm starting to panic for MY results in march.

the pictures from ashraf's / khairul's open house

baby and i on our way to hougang

all watching soccer in ashraf's place

the host aka bastard aka ashraf

in khairul's place playing ps

yesterday was a really good day for me. firstly, we went for lan. secondly, we had a good time during supper, reliving the good ol' days. prata once again with extra sweet tea-chino ice. yum* and we played those stupid ridiculous no-logic games that i played when i was still in church. hahaha so fun so fun! esp when you are the only one who knows how the game goes.

i pray and hope the rest of the people out there did well for their N's! if all the guys do well, we'll go down ox's place to celebrate. till then, i'm going to bug my brother to cook me lunch (bacon! bacon! fat fat bacons!!) and while i indulge in those oily sinful foods, laters! x)

2004-12-16T04:19:00.000+08:00

i've decided to keep everything neat and simple.

woohooo! i'm back from the chalet and i sure did have a good time there. i met this little 3 year old girl called alexandra (alex in short) and she is so cute! she looks like a small jap girl that appears on tv ads. anyway, she was so clingy towards berber and i so we kindda took care of her the whole time there. if only i can upload the picture but its stored in my handphone and i can't seem to send it in an email form.

then the food was pretty damn good too. we had kebabs, marshmellows, chicken wing (which tasted as if it was fried), prawns which was by the way damn bloody good, stingrays, you name it, they have it all. its been a long time since i indulged in bbqed food.

daddy bought berber and i both white gold rings! he said that this ring would remind us of our sisterly love so that when we quarrel, we can look back and think about this ring that bonds us both together. awwww so sweet right. but he says its considerably quite cheap becaus eits quite thin. but its sooooo pretty. haha the sisters-ring! (: i love my daddy.

now my hand seems to be overloaded with rings. i have all in all 3 rings on me right now. my precious ring from baby that has his name engraved on it. grandma's gold ring that passed on down to me. and the lastest one from daddy. i'm so lucky to have all three love on me.

YAYYYYY!! baby will be back in less than 24 hour's time. i'm overjoyed! but right now, i think its time for me to sleep. it is exactly 4.30am right now. its high time i get my body clock adjusted back to normal so laters guys!

2004-12-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

spinning: simple plan - welcome to my life

i think i've gotten back to my old nocturnal lifestyle all over again. slept at 5am last night simply cos i couldn't get to sleep. came back from lan at around 1+am last night with justin, berber and shannon boy. while all of them showered and went into deep slumber, i came on the com and rotted all the way till 5am.

going for aunty helena's chalet later with my family. berber's now working for daddy so i guess they'll pick us up later in the evening. till then, i have to think of something to do which i hope would not be watching tv, or dvds, or use the com, or go to sleep. soooo boring.

BABY'S COMING BACK TOMORROW! thats the only thing i'm looking forward to right now. i missed him soooo damn bloody much. seriously, what would i do without him? he's like my comfort and pillar of strength. perfect example would be last night when everything just seem to be going wrong for me. and i was just there, staring at the com and wanting him by my side cos no one else would be able to comfort me like he could, and of course lend me a shoulder to cry on. but i have to thank all the wonderful people out there who cared for me and tried to cheer me up. THANKS OX!! THANKS VICKY!! THANKS DES!! THANKS KAREN!! THANK YOU TOO MY FRIEND!

so after all, i still have to keep in bottled up for things to be peachy all around me.

here's some shoutouts :

sonia >>
BABE! i miss you heaps too. now that you're busy making/earning money, you no longer have time for me!! boohoo. but its okay, once you've made money, i'm sure you'll treat me to lunch or dinner one day! hahaha right?? hope to see ya soon!

simone >>
are you okay dear? you don't sound too good. i'm always here for you no matter what. i'm just a call away and please call me!!!

ling >>
talk about MIA*. where have you beeeeen? please update your blog so i can't know whats going on gp! i love ya girl!

jamie >>
COFFEE DATE??

2004-12-15T01:37:00.000+08:00

you know, shopping too much can be rather draining. went down town to get my xmas shopping done. only managed to get baby's xmas/bday present and berber's present. other than that, i'll wait for wilson so be back before we go shop again.

daddy came to fetch us in the afternoon and we soon left for lunch at crystal jade. had a really really satisfying meal after eons. been eating like bee hoon soup / porridge all at home cos i was sick. so anyway we then left for town where we shopped till all the shop closed.

my dad loveeeeees to embarrass us. he was in the a/x changing room with shannon and they started singing "lalalallalala" soooo damn loudly, berber and i had to hide our faces and ask them to quieten down. anyway my crazy dad bought 2 a/x pants earlier on. i'll never ever pay such a price for a pair of pants. then we went shopping all over orchard. ALL OVER.

had dinner at chomps and i felt really guilty gulping down a whole jug of sugar cane iced all by myself. i'm pretty sure my cough would be really bad the next day. didn't eat much cos we had TCC earlier on during the evening. daddy was really cute cos he was sleeping in TCC. then he told us not to wake him up and give him 5 minutes. so he slept for 5 minutes and when he woke up, he was like "okay, battery recharged!" and he became so hyper after that.

i was all so happy when typing this but now, my mood has changed and its right down the pits now. there's always a limit to a person's bottled feelings right? i just want my baby here right now cos i really wanna break down and cry. i need to learn to be stronger.

2004-12-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

spinning : pixies - born in chicago

its not surprising i woke up in the afternoon today cos i cldn't sleep at all last night! was tossing and turning in bed the whole time. i wish he was there to hug me and cuddle me to sleep. sigh. what am i thinking?! its only 4 days lah ahdoi. then my sleep was disrupted by the stupid coughs (it was so bad i actually wondered to myself if i had contracted tuberculosis) and i woke up again at 4am just to take strepsils. urgh.

going CHRISTMAS SHOPPING later!! hopefully i'll get to buy baby's bday present too. i'm so broke so i'm combining the bday and christmas present. and hopefully when i come back, my fever won't come back. i think shannon's coming along with berber and i. see, brother sister bonding. how cool is that!

can you feel xmas spirit right now? x)

i can't wait for christmas cos my family and i would be having a gift exchange like last year. haha it alwyas feel so great to know that your family is there and together. daddy's joining in this year - that is what makes it extra special.

2004-12-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

tdy was a true blue hapychye day. i cannot be more happy to say that i truly enjoyed myself because i've been cooped up at home for the past few days. lovely day for swimming as well. it only started to rain when we were about to go for our showers.

then we left to watch national treasure which was actually pretty nice. mandy treated me to lunch cos i seem to be really broke these days. haha thanks once again hapchye. had teppanyaki which was so so so shiok. something funny happened in the cinema too but i'm too lazy to type it down. everyone should just sit at their alloacted places so there will not be a confusion in the dark.

then we settled down at secret recipe for tea time and dessert. poor mandy didn't have the luck to eat her choco moist cake cos it was sold out. haha, its okay we'll try it the next time. and my fever came back so i rushed home to take a nap. its been 5 days ! 5 days !! when will the fever go away? urgh.

wilson called me just now ! haha i'm so happy i got to talk to him cos i really miss him so much. been missing him the whole day and this was my face the whole time when i was out.

poor mandy had to tolerate my "i miss him/s" and "i miss your brother". okay thursday will be here in a blink of an eye - thats what i have to tell myself. i felt like crying just now cos he's always the one sponging me when my fever comes. i felt so lonely when i had to do it myself instead. thursday ! thursday ! thursday !

2004-12-12T18:43:00.000+08:00

let the drama unfold

MSN messenger 7.0 version is pretty damn cool. haha i think i'm quite slow about the new update but whatever it is, the effects amuses me. i'm like a small kid.

so my life have been more or less the same for the past week or so. with the usual job hunting which suck by the way. the heels i wore gave me like 3 blisters. and apart from that, none of the response have been fruitful just yet. please someone, just call me and say i'm hired! and coincidentally while looking for a job, we met xiang in taka. haha. and i bought this elle bag that i supposed everyone would have gotten it by now cos they ran out of stock on the gray and pink one which i thought was much nicer. never mind, brown and yellow will do.

being sick for 4 days is not any better. imagine having 3 out of 4 people in the household falling ill. thats kind of rare isn't it. all the children (which includes cherie, shannon and clarissa) lies on the sofa, covered in layers of blankets watching tv while the mom takes care of everything else. i love my mommy. latest update on my illness would be fever, flu, cold, cough and sore throat . all in one.

everyone's back from their holiday! haha goodie. now i can meet up with my dearest loupo for a cuppa coffee and some female bonding. that girl went to america and bought all the branded stuffs back and came back empty handed for me. hahahaha. never mind lah i forgive you. she has like levi's this guess that. victoria secrets this dior that. wah taitai ah! =D i miss you babe.

yesterday i went for ashraf's and khairul's open house to celebrate hari raya. there were i swear a hell lot of people who came. most of the SA ruggers and the ex SA ruggers and one ac rugger (fahmy) and we sure did have a helluva fun. and by the way, i still think ashraf's sister is damn pretty. haha. okay apart from that, the food was great great GREAT. we spent quite some time in ashraf's house before heading down to khairul's.

baby's gonna leave for pulau ubin tomorrow forhis sch's rugby obs. i'm gonna miss that smelly bum. went down to the army market with uncle alex and baby today and he bought his pocket torch and some stuffs to bring for his camp. then he got himself two brown tees (yes BROWN again!) which he claims is damn nice. haha. i think i have a part to play for the influencing part. i'll really miss you dear..

i've got a hapychye's date tomorrow. swimming in the morning then walking around and chilling out tomorrow. i hope my fever don't rise cos i'm so sick and tired of being sick. that sounded wierd but nvm. finally a hapchye date eh! hahaha.

(OH NO! I'M BLOGGING!!!! whoops!)
-turns to baby and starts blushing-

oh wells. =D

2004-12-09T17:33:00.000+08:00

everyone except mommy in this household has fallen ill. shannon's body temperature reached 39.9 earlier this morning. mine was just a mere 38.5 and berbe rhas been sick the past 5 days. badly jinxed. and because of this, baby's all out to take care of me. i've always been his princess. thanks baby and i love you.

2004-12-09T00:30:00.000+08:00

dirty and smelly wilson with his captivating smile. haha. ilu*

2004-12-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

i only know the middle row - baby / suhaimi (the rightful owner of all these photos, thanks again yah! *smiles) / ashraf (i shall be nice and not call him bastard anymore) / gerald

2004-12-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

clarissa / vina / nicholas

2004-12-08T03:42:00.000+08:00

MY LOVEEE!

2004-12-08T03:37:00.000+08:00

the only reason why i took this was because i needed to show wilson how it looked on me because... "no males allowed in the female changing room". if only window shopping could make me a really happy and satisfied girl. i kindda like this top although it makes me look eh, wierd.

2004-12-08T03:36:00.000+08:00

i always like to take a picture of xiang unsuspectedly. haha.

2004-12-08T03:35:00.000+08:00

after a LONG LONG LONG day in town, searching high and low for a damn job.

2004-12-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

CITY HALL

2004-12-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

it was such a HOT DAY!

2004-12-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

talk about ADDICTION - baby and nnon boy have been playing the ps2 since the time we got back home. thats about 6 - 7 hours straight now by the way. from 'king arthur' to 'metal gear solid 3' to 'smack down vs raw'. i bet you they are gonna sleep really late tonight.

i've been eating and eating non-stop since my o's ended. no kidding. everyone thinks i'm fat now.. sobs. and i'm also guilty cos i haven't been exercising for ages. no more netball, no more touch. how to exercise?! and i hardly have the discipline to go jog or go down to the gym unless someone like my dad drags me down. i think the only person who can discipline me in exercising is my daddy. even wilson can't cos i'll bug him non-stop to let me stop. haha. i wanna go down sentosa soon.

MY WANTS:

a brand new, good computer
mosturizing lip balm
the olympus digital camera
a new pair of jeans
gold stud
mini christmas tree
all my friends to be happy and blissful.
my family to be kept safe and sound.

i hope that is not too much for 2004 christmas. i actually want more material stuffs like clothes and all but i guess ultimately, your friends and family are those that you really care for and would want the best for them. i need a new computer cos mine is pretty screwed up. my lips are extremely dry these few days so i guess a moisuturizing lip balm would make me happy. i need a new digicam cos i don't have one that i can call my own. i'm running out of jeans. a gold stud would also make me a happy happy girl. i wanna celebrate christmas with my family and friends.

OKAY ALL! i'm off to play some king artur with baby cos shannon's gonna turn to bed now. so laters all. have a goodnight sleep.

2004-12-02T18:23:00.000+08:00

your word is a lamp to my feet

and a light for my path

psalm 119 : 105

was just looking through my rusty bible i've kept on my shelf for the past 2 years. the bible that i always sought refuge and comfort in. the bible that kept me going since i was young. chanced upon this verse that was highlighted in my bible. perhaps this verse once spoke to me and made me feel like i'm a whole new person. mmmm, reading the bible and having some quiet time really does help ease your soul and calm your mind. i'm gonna bring baby to church with me one day. sam?? okay?? we'll drag dick and xiang along too. heehee.

i've been a nocturnal creature for the past 5-7 days or so. sleeping in the morning and afternoon and engaging in activites in ungodly hours past 12 midnight. haha but nonetheless, i must say we always have such a helluva fun time. yesterday we went down to keiran's place to watch dvd and ordered pizzas. i wanna continue watching S.W.A.T! but singapore idol had to start at 745 so we all started watching. pelican pizzas are quite good. i think its better than canadian even. well, to me. then we went down to CRC to play lan for awhile. elijah is sooo funny. then we went over to baby's to chill out and play some murderer. its so easy to spot the murderer cos there were only 6 of us. had fun with all of them. thanks for being such great company guys! x)

so we woke up at 3-4 plus this afternoon. bathed, changed, and zoomed over back to my place. promised mommy i'll be a good girl and stay home. but i think i'll have to accompany shannon down to CRC for some lan-gaming later on cos mommy don't want shannon to go down alone. just called berber and damn! she can't join us later cos she is already enjoying her cs in kembangan. oh well, guess it would be shannon, mandy, baby and i? (:

mommy ordered this walnut cake that is gettign em addicted to it cos it taste too damn good. its like we order now and can only get it by january the earliest cos apparently the lady pften gets a lot of orders and she only sellsher cakes to regulars or people she know. so mommy's friend introduced this lady to mommy and now she's supposedly a regular now. whatever it is, ahhhhh YUMMY!!!

anonymous 1 >>
thanks. eh i got my dress from phuture london and hair done at pointers. but my hair is already curled before that so all they did was to blow dry.

roxy >>
hey girl! you looked fabulous that day too!! too bad i didn't get a chance to snap a picture with you.

anonymous 2 >>
what makeover? the make-up was done free cos my dad's gf bought her compact powder from there and she asked if they could do my make-up for me. so it was sort of like why not? yeah.

zul >>
urggh wanted to go down to watch but wilson was not playing cos of his ear injury. :(

2004-12-02T03:57:00.000+08:00

on our way to SA to watch the old boys match.

2004-12-02T03:55:00.001+08:00

prata anyone? (:

2004-12-02T03:55:00.000+08:00

shermen, kelvin, robert, GABRIEL!!, baby and i.

2004-12-02T03:53:00.000+08:00

alwin teo!

2004-12-02T03:52:00.001+08:00

all the little kiddos squashed in a tiny playhouse.

2004-12-02T03:52:00.000+08:00

keiran the joker

2004-11-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

joke of the day

bryan (asking very innocently) :
mummy, what does ass mean?

aunt cindy (thinking of the letter 'S') :
'S' stands for Singapore..

bryan (nodding to himself) :
oooohhhh, *pause* eh then what does hole mean?

2004-11-30T16:55:00.000+08:00

THE FAST AND THE FURIOUS baby's watching it again. i guess he's tooooo bored. we're both hungry and bored and have got nothing in mind on what to do now or later. ahhh what bad combination. but thank God the weather is fine otday and not pouring heavily like every other day.

yesterday went down to meet baby for supper at around 2am? cheese, onion prata and tea-chino again. the uncle there sees us as his "regulars" already. we went there, found a seat and the uncle came and said "4 tea-chino ice? and 4 cheese?" whahahaha. try being there for 4 consecutive days. anyway the prata there is really good. chatted all the way till morning at around 5am before we made our way back to my place and zonked out on bed.

just cooked rice and baby's out to buy black pepper beef and kangkong again and i'll whip up some chicken steak and seasoned pork ribs later on. yummy*

2004-11-30T01:54:00.000+08:00

I'm living in a shadow

when everyone is wide awake, i'm fast asleep and sleeping like a log. and right now, when everyone is fast asleep, i'm WIDE AWAKE! i really need to adjust this majorly screwed up body clock of mine. i should sleep and wake up at the rightful time. but when, i don't know.

baby's out right now and this would be be the second time i'm not spending the night with him over the past few weeks or even months. sobs. it feels so wierd when i have no one to hug to sleep and no one to scream, shout and drag me outta bed in the morning just simply because yours truly would be soooo damn lazy to. whahahah. baby i miss you. but i also know that you need to be a good buddy to your friends too. so dick and sam, you two owe me one! haha =D

was watching america's next top model for the first time just now. omg, yoanna or whatever her name is is so pretty! haha she has that audrey hepburn look which i think is really attractive and elegant looking. ahhhh and they went shopping in milan, italy! omg, i wanna go to italy too!!! i'll make sure my future husband sponsors me a trip there. then i can shop till i drop. but then again, it will cost a bomb. as in seriously a bomb.

you knwo what i really feel like doing right now? i wanna bake cupcakes, make a cheesecake or anything to do with the oven and messing up of kitchens. heehee. hopefully our baking day would still be on and hopefully elijah would stick to his word and treat us all to pizzas. mmm* i can't wait cos the holidays are getting far too boring as days go by.

gonna go catch a movie with baby tomorrow. its been eons since we last went out for a movie. think the last was ladder49 which i absolutely love. the incredibles - whoopie! right now i'm just craving for my cheese prata with lots and lots of sugar+curry.

caught the england vs australia game on i think starsports just now. australia played really well in the first half till they started to slacken in the second because i think they were all exhausted. but england, vice versa. you should see this really beautiful try by england in the second half and how one of the player assisted it. omg, it was like whao! and i must say giteau is a really really good player. australia's youngest player and he sure can kick.

currently
spinning >> celine dion & r kelly - i am your angel
hungrrrrrrrryyyyyyy
ddp tee and fbt shorts

2004-11-29T01:51:00.000+08:00

i always thought that that's so raven was one of the funniest comedy shows ever. but recently, i've discovered another tv show that could make me laugh just as hard. baby and i just caught my wife and kids on disney channel. hahahahahah that show is so freaking addictive.

the past few days have been pretty good. late nights out and lan and bunking over at sim's place. reached home at 6am this morning so baby and i slept all the way till 4 plus this afternoon. i think baby had a really really hard time trying to wake me up cos i was so damn tuckered out. last night was just so much fun. we stayed out till the wee morning doing crazy stuffs. try stuffing 4 big boys in a small tiny playhouse. yes that was pretty much it. oh yah being bored, we also resulted in playing 'pepsi cola one two three'. imagine man. whahahha.

thurs night was our grad night. the food wasn't that fantastic but it wasn't that bad as well lah. and i got my dress like a few hours before the dinner. i really couldn't be bothered at that point of time. whatever it is, i got my make up done at chanel and my hair blown at pointers. didn't spend much at all. besides the fact that i wore the wrong undergarments and had to go shopping for them at ck tang. thats the only thing i spent a bomb at in fact. took plenty of pictures and i think i looked rather ghostly. whats new right. whahaha my dress was horrible. i hated it but i already told myself to get the first dress i saw and i did. horray to clarissa.

then we bunked over at sim's place. it was one helluva night. ling was the first to zonked out cos she drank quite a bit. then simone's friend, benedict, came over as well to join us. played cards and drank quite a bit. baby thought i was really high and as quoted from dick, xiang and keiran - "high as a kite". i shall conclude that simone is not good at handling alcohol. haha silly girl. sonia ben and i were like the most sober and awake people. heehee i had a great time with my daintys. a game of cluedo to end it all. still feeling pek about it cos i could have won simone!!!!! urrrrgggghhhh i'll beat you to it next time trink!!! =D

then sat's afternoon was spent at st andrews. watched the old boys' match vs saints and the old boys vs sajc. i finally have a photo taken with gabriel! whahahah. he's soooo cuteeeee! then played a bit of touch with wilson and his juniors at the carpark. imagine an inexperienced girl playing with 9 other ruggers. whahahaha. like making a fool outta myself. but it wasn't too bad i guess. we skipped the dinner and prize presentation even though wil's coach wanted us to stay. instead we went for dinner at the banquet.. yummy korean food.

i need to search for a job soon. i'm feeling so damn broke lately. i should start scrimping and saving till i find a job to last me till january cos mommy already found me one in january that pays me pretty well. so i gotta start job hunting soon. i need money to buy baby his bday present and everyone else their christmas presents!!! haha.

i had a helluva shock when i opened my fridge earlier on. you'll never ever starve to death in my place. my freezer itself have food stored up that can at least last me for a month. and my mommy labels all the containers all the instructiosn to cooked them, whetehr to fry or microwave it. whahahaha. no more maggies for me for the time being now. yayy.

i love holidays!

anonymous 1 >>
yes, they are divorced.

anonymous 2 >>
30? oh my thats bad.

passerby >>
i got it from malaysia. don't worry its not an imitation.. (:

mandy >>
yes hapychye!! SOOOOON OKAY!! (:

heyheygal >>
eh i don't think it has the number three. mine was bought quite a long time ago in the adidas outlet in citylink.

2004-11-25T01:24:00.000+08:00

OOOOOOOOHHH FREEEEDOMMMMM!

i'm dead beat. been out since morning till now. didn't intend to go to school last night but after recieving ling's sms and simone's call, i realised that i really needed to go to school. so i rang sonia up and we rushed to school as quick as possible. we met a handful of bastards though - those pests who kept stealing our cabs and cutting right in front of us. urrgh. i wanted to go over and punch those people. then i saw one on the wheelchair and held back my cursing and swearing. haha. surprisingly miss yip did not yell at us, instead she was sooo nice its quite hard to believe. then mr yap went through our mcq answers with us. i like mr yap. he's one of the few very patient and really nice teachers.

okay anyway i think my hair really suck. why golddddddd?! it didn't look gold before but it ended up being goldennnnnnnn! freaaaaaaaak! ahhhh whats done is done lah. i look like a golden monkey now. bahhh. i have a blister on my left foot and it hurts like hell. stupid adidas shoe. why give me blisters only now? i've been wearing it for so long. baddddd shoe!

did i mention that IM SOOOOOO DEAD???? tomorrow's my grad night and i have absolutely nothing with me. i am totally unprepared because i have no dress nor pants nor accessories nor heels nor shawl nor bag or whatsoever. hahahaha, im the best lah. buy on the day itself loh! thats what i'm gonna do tomorrow. now you know how bochup a person i am. i'll prolly go get a simple black dress to play safe. i hate black dresses though but its only one night or to be specific, 5 hours? yes. i'll just get whatever that i see first tomorrow. i really can't be bothered anymore.

i kept bumping into michiesweetums today. whahahah. we have a date soon okie! we'll go shopping once i recoup all the money that i've spent. wah lau, i'm so damn broke now. today i spend almost 150 bucks. went to play lan just now and after which baby and i went for supper at lorong eight. now i'm so bloated.

gotta wake up early tomorrow to really go shop for my stuffs. whahaha. i'll prolly get it over and done with for the first hour cos im quite determined to get the first dress i see. i'll upadet you about the dress another day. haha if its pink, i'll get it. if its black, so be it. FIRST DRESS! =D sometimes you need to take risks, like me. whahahah. i think im in a really cranky mood now.

baby has a hole in his ear. it split open when someone crashe dinto him and hit his ear. he went to the hospital today and the doctor took a picture of his inside. its disgusting. you see the hole in his ear. can you imagine. and his ear is black in color right now.

rachel stevens is sooo hot, right baby? whahah.

2004-11-23T11:35:00.000+08:00

GOOOOOD MORNING everyone! i woke up feeling already very chirpy so please don't mind me if i go overboard. ahh had a sweet dream last night. its been a long time since i managed to sleep well and through the night without having to wake up every 15 minutes or so, or even tossing and turning in bed. the bonus is that i even had such a sweet dream. i want more of this.

going down to school in roughly one hour and fifteen mins time for my final paper, bio. seriously, whatever i studied yesterday can't seem to be captured in my brain so i'd just have to hope for the best. i have all my notes beside me now so i'll be revising through once more after this entry.

baby's still snoozing like a pig on the bed. haha. one day, i should post a picture of his black ear. it is literally black. the doctor got a shock as well. everytime i see his ear, i'll never fail to burst out laughing and because of this, he thinks i'm a meano. whahahhaha. so cute baby.

seems like i'll be camera-less on grad night. daddy lent our camera to his friend cos he was going to thailand for a holiday. then i realised that uncle alex lent their camera to wil's aunt cos she'll be going to south africa for a month for a holiday as well. ooh noooo. anyone nice? please lend poor clarissa a digicam. she promises to take gooood care of it and return it to you the day after the event. sobs. maybe i'll just share it with ling, sonja and sim. whahahha. okay.

busy and rush day today.
laters!

2004-11-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry if i scared you baby.

well things weren't going right earlier on but all is good now. just had a scrumptious early dinner of kangkong, black pepper beef and eggs. now my tummy is really bloated and i feel like puking. baby went down 203 to buy dinner back and we cooked the eggs and rice by ourselves. save money lah haha. ilu baby.

gonna fix my hair tomorrow instead cos dad's only free then. then hopefully i'll have the time to make my way down anywhere to get my gown or pants or whatever's available. i'm so desperate for something to wear now. i don't have the time to spare to go down and shop for gowns or whatsoever. gotta accompany baby down to hospital on wednesday cos he has an appointment with the specialist for his ear. sooooo, NO TIME!! i really hope i have time tomorrow. i've got absolutely nothing. no gown, pants, heels, accessories, shawl, no nothing. hahaha i'm so damn last minute man.

bio tomorrow and i'm not even half complete. everyone should be partying and bumming away right now cos the majority of people don't take bio but take chem instead. whatever it is, i'm really anticipating the last minute till the o's are officially over for me. hopefully i don't have to retake next year.. fwhahaha.

alwin's friends really have got nothing better to do. to think that them sore losers would rebutt back and say that ox sucks. wth! haha he thrashed them like nobody's business loh. now it should be team pulse vs the unknown japalang clan in crc. so exciting. too bad i can't be down to watch and support team pulse.

sensory neurone
streptococcus thermophillus
homologous chromosomes
meiosis
binary fission
corpus luteum
lactobacillus bulgaricus
AHHHHH STUPID BIO.

2004-11-22T09:57:00.000+08:00

last paper tomorrow, i can hardly wait for everything to be over and done with. i'm sure most people would have finished all their papers by today. only the poor bio elective girls left to go. science paper one today was pretty much okay. i made a fw careless mistakes though. i think i've got 3 marks gone just like that. urrgh nvm.

gotta bring wil down to the doctors later and if he redirect us to the hospital then maybe we'll drop by the hospital sometime tonight or tomorrow. he's whole ear is like swollen and blue-black in colour. its disgusting. i hope its nothing serious cos i suspect he has a hole inside his ear, made worse from his previous injury.

while walking back home from the bus stop earlier on, i came in contact with this really scary looking big fat gray cat. it started clinging on the me like the cat from yck stadium and i was like having serious major goosebumps. i don't like cats very much. speaking of cats.. the fattest, biggest and most humongous cat i've see has got to be alwin's. omg, you'll get a helluva shock. it made me go "omg omg omg.. *tries to shuna way from it as it approaches* omg omg omg". haha serious!

couldn't sleep well last ngiht. kept tossing and turning in bed from 11pm all the way till 230am when i finally managed to doze off. three and a half hours just for me to fall asleep. power lah.

currently
lacks a lot of sleep
bummmmingggggggg
hungryyyyyy

2004-11-21T11:41:00.000+08:00

i'm going back to aljunied to fix my screwed up hair. daddy's gonna arrive in approximately 5 - 10 minutes or so. so thats all the time i've got to blog. i'm wearing so damn casual i hope he doesn't bring me elsewhere later. haha.

yesteerday was great. went down to yck stadium with dick and vina. baby injured his ear again. his ear sounds like its gonna deflate anytime soon. and his whole damn ear is swollen, very very very swollen. ouch. the sacrifice you have to make for rugby. anyway, saints lost to sas by one try and that try could have been saved. whats done is done anyway. they met sji in the plate finals.

then dick vina ashraf baby and i headed down to ljs for dinner. the clam chowder is such a ripped off. $1.90 for such a puny cup of 5 oz. anyway, we left for kovan at around 7 plus i think? the people we played with were a bunch of noisy annoying lads thinking they were Gods or something. was very much pissifying. then oxy the grayhead came and rescued us. whahaha must kowtow to him man. he comes and clear team like nobody's business.

prata again after that. this time we left at maybe 2am cos baby was really really tuckered out. the cheese prata there is yummy by the way. toa payoh lorong 4 if you wanna know the address. its 24hours so you can drop by there anytime. x)

alright, time for me to call daddy now. laters!

2004-11-20T13:05:00.000+08:00

adrenaline rush

just to fill you in (actually referring more to dick & vina), wilson and i got down to buy pratas and tea-chino for supper late last night for us and my family. yummy. 10 pratas all in all with 2 tea-chinos and one tea tarik. now is that shiok or what? we had a mixture of cheese, mushrooms, onions, egg, plain and plaster. mmmmmmmm*

today's gonna be good i presume. i'll be meeting dick and vina later in yio chu kang to head down to the stadium to watch baby's tournament. 10s i think. anyway hopefully we'll go down tp for some lan after that. i'm gonna be such a lightbulb. its been a long time since i watched that pig play. lets see how he's progressing. =D

did i mention that i finally found the lost school library book i borrowed like ages ago?! my sister hid it under her pillow cos she was reading it. so when she finally finished, she left it on the computer table and i was like TADA, there it is! to think i paid 10 bucks for the lost book. now i'm gonna bring it back to school on monday and get my 10 bucks back. haha goodie.

mom's watching meteor garden now and she just cooked macaroni. and since my stomach's grumbling, i shall go have my early lunch soon. my com's all cranked up. it seems to like to disagree with me. uurgh. first it was the porn site, freeXXX (wtf right!).. now my internet explorer won't open unless i close every other files first. reformating does not help, i swear. grrr.

oh freak of a nature, its already alomst half past 12. gonna go take a batha nd then eat and then head down soon. byeeeeeee!!

2004-11-19T16:18:00.000+08:00

points of authority

the pictures below are the recent uploaded assorted photos. its all under the link, limelight. it takes a lot of determination and hardwork to rename and caption almost every single photo. so much so that i really wanted to heck care about it.

yesterday was really fun. we all met up in kovan and had 2half hours of lan at niner. i personally think i played pretty well in aztec and inferno. whahaha. but that dicker had to restart the rounds so many times and all my frags were gone. sobs. anyway other than that, i played like shit. i'm a starhub remember? big time lagger. (laughs)

baby's sound asleep now and i'm glad he is. he seems to be in a really foul mood today and i hope i'm not the cause of it. must be the waking up this morning cos he had hardly any sleep last night. we came home at around 3am plus i think. then he had to wake up early to attend training. poor baby... i love you.

oh yeah back to yesterday, dick, vina, xiang, baby and i then headed over to alwin's place to chiil and slack. we caught you got served again cos apparently dicker couldn't get enough of it. but the major turn off thing was that the fat bitch was home. urrgh, i really don't understand how a person like her can exist on the face of this earth. no offence but she really enjoys poking her nose into other people's affair and she thinks she got every right to reprimand anyone cos she's older. fuck off and die lah bitch. bad experience with her so i'm really sorry for all the vulgarities and profanities. time for me to cool down. haha.

okay then at around 1 plus 2, everyone started to complain about their growling stomachs so we all took a cab down to tp's prata 24hour stall. mmmmm, yummy pratas. the cheese, onion and mushroom is good. and not forgetting their tea-chino. smacks lip. so we stayed there and laughed and chatted. gooood bonding session.

i haven't even started on my bio. just 4 more days and everything would be over. i really pray that i'll make it through. i'm not aiming high. just aiming to get through it and make it to a good course. thats all. wish me luck guys. x)

2004-11-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

vina & dick - sweeeet.

2004-11-19T16:16:00.000+08:00

my two loves.

2004-11-19T16:12:00.000+08:00

BUBBLE BATH

2004-11-18T18:06:00.000+08:00

i like girls that wear abercrombie and fitch

yesterday vina, dick, bastard, alwin, baby and i got down to kovan to play lan. it was really fun cos you know, alwin being the all time joker started making everyone laugh. baby was sooo affected by it he couldn't play properly. haha. yeah anyway after that we walked over to 7-11 and finally sam's place. had a bit of late night snacks + cards + chit chatting + you got served dvd + puzzle fighter + wwe shut your mouth ps2 game + some funny hiphop dancing. whahahaha. dick was being his hyper self as usual. he cracked everyone up so much. so much so that baby started rolling on the floor in fits of laughter. imagine.

thats basically yesterday. woke up pretty early this morning and i accompanied baby to the doctor. he has some leg infection and it seems to be spreading. stupid doctor didn't even do much. i'm never going back there again even though the fees are cheap. anyway haha i can imagine the pain baby went through. ouch. they scraped and pricked and rubbed the damn huge volcano-like infections.

lan again tonight. can someone please tell me that we are crazy! its like cs addict now. oh wells. they are preping up for the crc comp. haha. i'm just going there to play and have fun. they are crazier than me. anyway think its about time i leave now.

laters!

2004-11-17T17:21:00.000+08:00

my sugar pie honey bunch

you know i love you

HAPPY 33MONTHS BABY!!

what would i do without you? thanks for dazzling up my life baby and making me seem like i'm always the queen of the world with your endless pamper and ridiculous toleration for me. its been a sweet 33 months. many more months and years ahead! smucks* <3

another two papers down today, just two more left. geog today was pretty alright. i did 3 physical and one human and when i finally looked at the last page of the whole exam i was like "DAMN! this question is so easy!" urrgh. bad decision made from the start. should have done 2 each and i should have did the development question. nvm, whats done is done.

then came f&n paper after 3half hours. it wa sokay i guess. just that my mind went blank for the vitamin c functions. wtf right. ah nvm. the section c was all good for me. but section b? whahaha. its just amazing i made use of the whole 2 hours to complete my paper. usually i'll only take an hour or so to complete my exam.

my hair smells disgusting. anyways baby is over now. i finally mad eup my mind on going to j8. hahahaha. i wanna eat mee sua! then lan tonight. toodles!

2004-11-16T11:33:00.000+08:00

why do fools fall in love?

i love that song. ever since sonia mixed it into one of the cheers. "wooo wah wooo wah woooo wah wooo wah.. why do fools fall in love?" haha, it is always stuck in my head.

yesterday didn't turn out too good. sigh, i guess relationships are never sweet all the time. it was a downhill ride for us last night and it led to a fury argument that lasted for lets say half an hour? as much as i hate to quarrel with him, sometimes i just can't control this foul mouth of mine. lets just pray everything is calm and smooth now. he's at training now and i really miss him. hmmm, maybe i'll meet him for lunch later. i feel like crystal jading.

oh yeah i forgot to mention how good the movie ONG BAK is. as brutal as it may seem (it brought me to tears btw), the show is freaking good. and although the whole movie was in thai with no english subtitles, i believe canto will do. the whole "hii-yahhh!" and the "bang" actions thrill me. that ting guy has got lightning speed relexes and he jumps so damn bloody high!!! okay i'm just so amazed by him. you all should really go catch the show. which reminds me to thank nicky once again, thankssss!!!! haha.

just 4 more papers to go. tomorrow's my geog and f&n. then monday's the mcq science paper and finally wed, my bio paper. wooohooo. my mind has lighten up a little bit but there is still 3 subjects to worry for. especially geog. KILLER.

i just found out that SJC get to enjoy their grad night in hyatt. haha wah grand. our's in mandarin meritus and we have the rg girls attending their grad on the say day same time as well. well, i'm so freaking dead. i have't got anything and i don't intend to get it till the last paper. this is what i call.. really last minute and bochup.

*does the dick thing* body language - haha.

2004-11-15T15:50:00.000+08:00

a surge of happiness

i'm thinking of changing my layout but there's nothing nice on blogskins. if only i can create my own layouts.. haha but too bad i'm just bad at all the html stuffs. i'm feeling extremely good today. feeling too good to actually get down and study. sometimes i really wonder why the olevels didn't seem intimidating to me at all. i'm supposed to feel stress and nervous right? okay maybe i did feel a little stress especially the day before when i attempt to cram everything into my puny brain but other than that, i'm feeling really cool about all of it. wierd.

baby stayed over last night. i cannot recall when was the last time we didn't see each other in 24hour. heehee. he's stuck with me and i'm stuck with him. its like we are never separated. and i won't be able to sleep without him, thats for sure. he's my other half right now and without him, i can't function further. you get my drift. baby, thanks for everything! i love spending my everyday with you.

you know who i really miss right now? i miss my daintys! the last time i saw them was last wednesday during our paper. urrgh, girls we gotta go for lunch after our geog paper on wednesday okay? please get back to me. thanks sweeties.

i'm really gaining a lot of weight. this is especially evident on the amount of fats growing around my waist and my face! arghhh. i already have got high cheekbones and plus all these fats accumulating.. its unsightly. haha oh wells. running, here i come after the exams! i'm gonna drag baby along with me to run.

No mountains too high, for you to climb

All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah

No rivers too wide, for you to make it across

All you have to do is believe it when you pray

And then you will see, the morning will come

And everyday will be bright as the sun

All of your fears cast them on me

I just want you to see...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky

I'll be your shoulder when you cry

I'll hear your voices when you call me

I am your angel

And when all hope is gone, I'm here

No matter how far you are, I'm near

It makes no difference who you are

I am your angel

I'm your angel

i am your angel.

2004-11-14T21:47:00.000+08:00

i'll be your angel

woohooo! home sweet home at last. how's everyone doing? good i hope. the trip was good cos the company was just simply great. having a whole big family going on a holiday together is great no? (: i enjoyed every moment of it although my legs and bumbum would ache so much due to the number of hours we were stuck in the car. and there was this huge traffic jam in tuas earlier this evening. wah kao!

first two days were spent in genting and the weather was freezing. i couldn't leave the hotel without my jacket. well didn't do much except for pigging out, bowling, arcading and a teeny wee bit of shopping. managed to get this pretty gold shoe. whahaha, and a nice pink tee. wanted to get my conatcs that would last me for the next 6 months but they only had one box left. urrgh. so this box would only last me for 3 months. i hate having to spend my money on contacts. erm, thats basically it. i still think the kebabs there is shiooook.

malacca for the next two days. swimming in icy cold water and having a club room all to ourselves - wah DELUXE man! the club room was super big and spacious and it did look pretty damn good and comfy. i had a bubblebath with mandy and bryan after our swim (with out swimwear on of course!) and we made a huge mess in the bathroom. whahahaha. and earlier this morning, we caught atomic twister on channel5. after which we made our way back to sunny island singapore. i missed home.

okay i know everyone would be thinking, did clarissa study over in m'sia.. the answer is YES! haha i did a bit lah. just read through a little of my physical geog and thats basically it. half the time you'll see wilson bugging and nagging at me to study and because of that i'll get pretty pissed with him (giggles).

i'm not a cantonese but i'm been picking it up since i met wilson. hahaha, and the past four days, it was a test for my canto communication skills man. too bad i failed. mama and the rest of his family kept making me talk canto and kept asking me questions in canto so i could practice BUT i just refuse to open my mouth. whahaha, baby thinks i think they are all monsters. wth? he's so cute lah.

tomorrow's monday and i wanna play lan. i hope i can get down to study first though. oh freak of a nature, i forgot to bring my star over. now tell me how the hell am i gonna sleep?

i'm gonna stay awake till 1.30am cos there will be a ITALY vs NEW ZEALAND match showing on star sports. woohooo its been eons since i watched a game. stupid baby is always playing on rainy days or i'll be down to watch him play. rooting for NZ.. woohoo. oh and berber reformated our com so everything's gone. this is just great. all my songs and templates and pictures and videos.

i think i grew a lot fatter, oh barnicles!

2004-11-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

in absolute love with GOLD

you know, the colour gold makes me smile. i don't mind having gold jewelry (sp?) in replacements of blingblings. haha okay i'm kidding. i'm not a gold nor diamond fanatic and i'm not someone who can easily be bought over by such things. sooooo, its just the colour gold lah.

LET ME RECAP ON THE HAPPENINGS ON TUESDAY:
it was a major crazy day - many lessons learnt. i was supposed to follow berber for a haircut and my dad's gf made an appointment with the stylist a few days before that. and guess where we went? le salon or smtg like that. all the stylist did was to wash, massage, cut and blow dry. oh and maybe offer us drinks "may i serve you any drinks? ice lemon tea, green tea, coffee or tea?" and for that, we had to blow a hole in daddy's pocket. well maybe not exactly. my dad's gf is toooooooo rich. bleah. anyway berber thinks her stylist is good looking. i think otherwise. haha.

so after that, we were supposed to window shop till daddy came to join us. so we walked through the whole of wisma and i finally saw my jeanie*mummie!!! loooking good my dear! i missed you!! okay and i finally got a chance to stepped in forever21 (haha blushblush). first impression, messy like hell. and the quality of clothes ain't that good either. its just like another topshop no? but well, too messy for me to shop. i stepped in and i was like "okay now, jie.. where do we start?".. see! that was how bad it was. haha. and i was a good sister! i changed my cute lil white&pink round-tipped shoe with her really uncomfortable high heels! i enjoyed it for awhile cos it made me look ultra tall but the pain got to me after a while. and you know, i'm a natural kluts so haha such high heels ain't the type for me.

then that gf of daddy made us walk into every shop and she tried on almost everything. she spends money that water flowing from a tap. poor daddy. anyway she made us stand outside this shop for an hours plus so she could purchase $15o worth of clothes to be a member. i got really grouchy after that. so anyway we entered topshop and guess what she said? "oh these kind of clothes can be bought at pasar malams lah.." wtf? its supposed to be OUR shopping trip. not hers only. urggh. berber had to tolerate all the rantings and cursing and swearings that came outta my mouth. whahaha.

my daddy has changed a hell lot as well. he now buys his clothes from A/X which btw is a cheat. they just bought the name over and in fact, its just any ordinary local brand. they basically just use the word "armani" to extort money out of poor people like us. but too bad daddy fell for it. then that gf of his bought a braun buffel bag. how come i don't enjoy such priviledge? whahaha. and we entered in phuture london and she just picked out a few tops and bought them all down. one top costs about 79 bucks god damn it! woooooo, heartpain man.

anyway all i purchased was a toss 3quarts, toss shell earrings, and a bronze top that i really like. thats all! as for that gf of dad's, she bought SOOOO MANY, daddy had to lug all her damn paper bags. mango, zara, pepper plus, heatwave, phuture london, etc etc. urrrrgh talking about it pisses me off. so lessons learnt guys:

1. shopping for 9hours straight is no joke.
2. shopping for 9hours and ending up with only 2 piece of clothing sucks.
3. shopping with her is no joke as well.
4. neither is cutting your hair for 99bucks a big joke.
5. having a dad like that can be frightening at times.

you knwo what he told us? "don't bother about the brands.. if you like it, just get it!" and i told him "daddy you're crazy!". he claims that his mindset has changed and that he learnt to be more open about everything and stuffs like that. woohoooo if its this way then lets gucci and dior away! haha ok im kidding again. seriously my dad is crazy. he pays 98 bucks for an ugly pink button down shirt. yes, my father wears pink. ewww. haha. my dad used to be really stingy but he's really starting to freak me out. is it a good or a bad thing? i don't know myself.

wow, thats a pretty long entry.

anyway geography paper one today was all good for me. it has so many repeated questions from the TYS and the map reading didn't require any calculations at all surprisingly. i'm just nervous for paper 2.

went down to cine to meet up with dick, vina, xiang and the rest of wilson's classmates for cs at egames. it was fun shit man! so many of us playing. tpc/s improving. haha, you should check out the time when the tpc/s were in dust2, we sticked as a team and wiped out the whole terrorists man! whahahha. baby's gonna be called chairman. dick, searcher i think. vina - desperado. xiang - Q!. i don't knwo about sam and jo though, but i'm still thinking.

leaving for malaysia tomorrow. won't be back till sunday. i hope i can get down to study over there, i've got no other choice right now. bahhh i need more RM. mommy only made me change a little and i need to use the money to buy contacts as well. sobs. we'll see how things go.

i'm really excited cos mama and yeye would be coming along. a whole big family in the family car - awwww family bliss. i like.

2004-11-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

THE COM IS MAJORLY SCREWED.
i think a porn site is such an eyesore.
whats worse is that the program of some shitass XXX site is up on my com.
and it was installed by itself.
and i can't freaking uninstall it.
i hate all these shitass pop-ups.
its driving me mad and i'm definitely pissed with this shit com.

shannon wants to get ps2.
i say he should get a new good com instead.

anyway i'm following berber to the salon tomorrow.
daddy suggested taka, so taka it shall be.
i wonder what berber's gonna do to her hair.
i wanna do my hair differently.
dad said he'll bring me back there next time
cos he needs to book an appointment.
now.. the question is.. WHAT SHOULD I DO?
its either digital perm, ceramic perm, cut my hair short or just let the hairdresser do whatever she wants.
i hate taking risks and i don't know if i should right now.
whahaha we'll see how things go.

my dad has been outrageously generous these few days.
he wants to bring us shopping all the time.
and he calls us up to ask if we wanna do our hair.
and he spends so much money on food.
and he doesn't complain a single bit.

angel >> yeah thanks. i'm trying to but i can't sit still for too long. so i try some stress relief at times. but i do study.. =D

2004-11-08T13:13:00.000+08:00

if only i can turn back time and redo my paper. i hate my carelessness. urgh. but anyhow i'm just glad another paper's down. now my only worry is geog. please God, assist me.

yesterday didn't turn out too good. i wish i was less paranoid and less sensitive then maybe problems would not arise. i always wanted to be a good girlfriend and i hope i am. ahh what am i talking about? all these don't matter. what matters most is that i know i'm giving out my best and my all in this relationship between us. isn't that what it is all about? (:

today's gonna be a typical monday with the monday blues already set in. berber's going out shopping leaving me all alone at home. hrpmh! but nevermind, haha its always good when she goes shopping cos then i would have an extra set of clothes in the wardrobe without having to spend a single cent. woohoo.

-

here's an article extracted from the newpaper:

CONFESSIONS of a lad-mag photographer
cellulite, stretchmarks, breasts that aren't quite what they're cracked up to be.. those cover girls pix that men drool over are really touched up to perfection..

WHAT does a man think about when he has to spend an afternoon photographing a red-hot bikini babe for a sizzling lad mag cover? Most likely he's thinking.. we've GOT to do something about her tummy.

All these photographs we see on magazine covers have undergone major overhauls, confessed FHM photographer Raymond Toh.

"Their tummies have been shrunk by 20 to 3 percent and their busts pumped up 50 to 100 percent. If their bikini tops are too transparent, their nipples would also have to be toucvhed up. Most of the time, they would have been completely removed," revealed the 34-year-old photographer, who also shoots for other magazines like Cleo, Space, Home Concepts and Harper's Bazaar.

"In reality, most of these models' breasts are either lopsided or too small, and they have cellulite and strtch marks on their thighs."

-

i found the article quite interesting and this is to let everyone know that celebrities aren't perfect themselves and even if they do, they are probably artificially made up - just check out all their history of plastic surgeries. oh okay so maybe that doesn't seem to apply to local celebrities but hey, the cover shoot photos are all touched up and somehow doctored. men.. men... -shakeshead- they get fooled into entering some fantasy land and having to fork out a freaking 6 bucks for something that ain't really what they think it is. they see a picture of a sexy young thing on the cover but don't know that everything is just an illusion. men men..
-shakeshead once again- haha.

IM BORED. so so bored. and i wanna play cs. i'm leaving for genting on thursday and will only be back on sunday so i really hope i can catch up on my geog. its such a big bulk to mug for and i've only touched on one chapter. i'm pretty nervous but i hope time flies.

spinning: usher feat. alicia keys - my boo

2004-11-07T01:58:00.000+08:00

blue suede shoes

helloooo everyone! okay i'm currently in an excellent mood right now and i just can't sit still or go to sleep cos the hyperness has set in. baby just took his shower and its currently 2am. hmm.

dinner today was good. berber was craving for seafood so daddy suggested geylang. so we went down to the sinma place and had a whole pigging out session. its the trio-date once again and there were plenty of laughter in the room. men just hate women to squeeze their blackheads don't they? whahahaha.

oh and guess who i saw there?!?! SONJA & NICKY! omg omg, it was such a coincidence. i came out of the toilet and i saw this really familiar face and that nice brown jacket and i was like "OMG, SONIA!" and i could tell she was shocked as well. whahaha. see, fate has brought us together cos we couldn't meet the day before in the airport. lurb ya girl!

anyway daddy, his gf, berber and justin should be enjoying themselves right now. dear and i went to play 2 hours of lan earlier on. whahaha. it feels great to chiong with just a deserteagle. yeah, it was alright. not so fun cos dick and vina werent there but it wasn't too bad lah.

now i think i ought to go help baby cook his supper. laters!

2004-11-06T13:03:00.000+08:00

fly me to the moon

last weekend was quite havoc especially with the presence of my daddy. whahaha. we had like a trio-date? it was awkward but hilarious. so it was berber+justin, daddy+his gf, and wilson+myself. we went down to cine to catch a midnight movie, ladder49 (btw, its a great show! a superb one indeed!) but before that, we headed down to lips cafe for some light snacks but end up feeding one another a whole load of food. daddy was like the atm machine for that day, haha. so after the movie, daddy brought us down to some pub near paragon. it was like everyone's dancing to techno and all and all four of us (just, ber, baby and i) were bored to death. however, daddy was dancing and drinking as if he doesn't know he's already 42 years old. haha so cute. then we headed back home at about 4am.

now this week, which is today in fact. we're heading down for dinner with daddy. after which he says he'll go down to a club that we usually frequent. so berber's bringing hom to MS i think. it'll be funny having daddy down at cheekys. whahaha. too bad i can't go. so i'll be only going for the dinner and then back home cos i've got a paper on monday.

so yesterday was pretty fun. we had a really fulfilling dinner in popeyes together with dick and vina. after which we headed down to town to roam around. so we walked from somerset all the way to taka outside and we just sat down and talk till midnight. then we saw irene ang and this other actor and we exchanged greetings. she was so funny. okay anyway, back to the roaming part. we wanted to go walkwalk until the clock striked twelve so we could go down to egames to play cs cos it only costs 1.50bucks from midnight to 3am. however, when we got down there at around 12:10, it was fullhouse with an hour and a half waiting list. urrgh, so we went upstairs instead and played for awhile. had yoshinoya for supper and took a NR home.

so like i said its back to maths and geog for the weekends. i just hope emaths paper 2 would be easy. as for geog, i would have to pray very very hard. just 2 more weeks to go.

disney channel is pissing me off. everyday they play tarzan the movie. first it was princess diary, then it was land before time, now its tarzan the movie. all these supposedly "awesome" movies i thought they were last time have become so damn annoying. i should go complain. can't they have a variety of shows? mmmm.

the past few days in school during the exam period is so damn fun. hahaha, with my daintys around, they never feel to make me laugh. the most hilarious incident would be the "mangan cake" whahahaha. sonja and ling would know. then it was the period where we had 4 hours to pare before our lit paper and we had lots of laughing in the school's library that the person in charge had to shut us up. i love you girls! smucks*

2004-11-05T15:19:00.000+08:00

rock your body

i still think sylvester's performance on "rock your body" yesterday was pretty hilarious even though he didn't sound that bad. it was pretty alright actually, considering the fact that "rock your body" is a very hard song to sing. but i think taufik did really well.. as in really well. i'm a taufik fan okay! haha. if he sang the second song to the girl of his dreams, i'm sure she'll literally melt her heart. haha, okay enough about singapore idol.

currently at wilson's place. he just left for school cos he has a match with ngee ann poly. then i'd probably either meet him in school or kallang later at around 6+. so right now, i'm just bumming away till i feel like returning home. mandy's on the bed reading the da vinci code now though. oh yeah i gotta thank michie*sweetums for lending it wilson. haha thanks babe!

okay so another 2 paper down yesterday. emaths was okay but i know i made a hell lot of careless mistake as soon as i checked my answers with my friends. bah. lets not go into it. then lit was arrgh, unexpected. why did alfieri come out when he was out last year? anyway i did the passage based one so i hope it went smooth. as for the unseen prose, i had no freaking time to produce a good and standard essay so.. goodbye to my ss/lit. a total of 12 sides i wrote.. hands ached so much after that. i'm just glad its over... x)

i have a pimple breakout right now. i think its due to stress. hey, i was really stress. so i had to have my stress relieved so it was lan for me last night. i can't emphasize how bad i played and how bad a player i am. whahahaha. anyway its for the fun, isn't it? =D woooohoooo. its popeyes tonight again. gotta start working on my emaths paper 2 over the weekends.

its raining again. when will it ever stop? i hate the monsoon. it is because of weather like these that you feel so lazy to study. it is also weather like these that spoils you plan for the day. for me, it is the former. it makes me wanna snooze in bed and never wake up. i've got evidence for that. i woke up at 2:36pm earlier on. whahahaha. pig pig pig.

oh yes! and how am supposed to go home when its raining?! ahh damn! maybe my last resort would be dick and vina's typical transport - cab! whahaha. i think i'll cost me about $2.80? such a waste of money. but i wanna go home so alrighty.

2004-11-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

i'm still here, alive and functioning.

just hanging on till the 23rd of this month and i'll be as free as the birds in the sky. the thought of the overwhelming joy i'll experience after the invigilator goes "okay pens down" after my bio paper simply electrifies me. it is just about 3 weeks more to go, i gotta hang on and give this last leap my best.

chinese paper was really bad. the compre passage just got me stuck in my chair feeling so flustered cos i couldn't comprehend what the hell it was talking about. it was that bad. so you can imagine how i guessed my way through the whole comprehension. however, for the first time in my secondary school life, i was able to fill in 3 out of 5 hanzi/s considering the fact that i didn't even open my book until only before the paper started. haha, i gotta thank God for that.

then came ss. it was well, not too bad i guess. i only studied 5 chapters and all the 5 chapters came out. the only worry i have is that i kindda blanked out in the second part of my essay question. i just hope all is good. i kindda gave up on my source-based a long time ago so oh wells, but i beleive it wasn't that bad. haha.

today was english and physics. the essay questions got me to think for a whole 7 minutes before i could actually come up with a damn storyline. it wasn't easy for me. as for the comprehension, i did my best and i hope God will do the rest. physics was pretty much alright. this time, luck didn't work for me. the chapters or questions that i studied really hard for didn't come out. whereas those that i browsed through the night before and all came out. so all the best to me. and i blanked out on all the formulas sometime in between the papers. it was so nerve-wrecking. imagine if i couldn't remember ANY formulas, that would've been the end of me.

i'm just so nervous for tomorrow's paper. i've never been good in emaths so i just hope all my efforts would be paid off (in tuition i mean!) haha. and the most dreaded subject, lit, would turn out fine. i gotta prepare my hands by massaging and exercising it like 20 minutes before the paper. haha, just in case the furious scribbling would lead to severe finger or wrist cramps. whahahaha. okay i'm talking a shit load of crap no? i am just so freaking scared, so so so scared.

sigh, i'm not studying enough. everyday after i come back from school, i would always catch a nap for like at least 2 - 4 hours before watching tv. and only in the evening would i get my ass down to read through my notes and study. and its not even serious studying. ahahaha, it is more like browsing through the notes and hoping that something all the informations would store in my head. haha i wish i had a computer functioning brain lah - right sonja? x)

baby - thanks for standing by me all these while and encouraging me. i'm sorry for blowing my tops at you sometimes when i start to get a little impatient or stress from all the work. i really appreciate all that you've done for me all these while, or to be specific, the past 2 years and 8 months+. you're sitting for your emaths paper tomorrow so i wish you all the best yah? i'm sure you'll do well since we've been trying to improve our maths and attempting to do our best. baby, you're my source of strength and my motivation for me to spur on. thanks! i love you.

[edit] AHHHH I LOVE MY BABY TO BITS! HE JUST GAVE ME A HELLUVA SURPRISE! heehee. baby i loveeeeeeee spending my days with you. smucks* [edit]

2004-10-30T16:34:00.000+08:00

love leads to laughter
love leads to pain

indeed, it does. love is such a emotional and strong word that many always use. but do anyone know exactly the meaning of love? i think i do, but yet i don't. if there is so much love in the world, then why are there wars? if there is so much love in the world then why did the word backstab even come about? and if there is so much love in the world, then why do we get upset? all these lovey dovey thoughts may all just be nothing but a facade. oh my good lord, i don't even know what the hell am i talking about. maybe its the temperamental mood i'm encountering now. my love comes from my family, friends and baby. and my love goes to my family friends and baby as well. but why is it that sometimes you just get so tired of everything? i guess it's life eh? i do hope i'm right back on track soon. not the right time to ponder about what life's in store for me now.

it seems like everything is going against me now. i was blowing my nose just now when i realise that hey, i think i blew my retainer stick out too. now i don't have a spare one and i have to end up putting on a stud. i look like a damn ahlian but heck lah. i'll just go out to buy more retainers later.

baby just finished showering in less than 5 minutes. i'm shocked. men lah huh? =D

STRESS RELIEF = CS!
i reallllyyy wanna go bangbang now.

yesterday was really good. after studying my physics, baby and i brought shannon out for dinner and fetched him back home. then we headed down to tp to meet dick, vina and alwin to play lan. it was sooo fun. then we went up to snookerzone to meet ox. played for a short while before we left for supper. sat at the muslim stall from 12 midnight all the way till 430am in the morning. imagine. it was just a really good bonding and talkcock session. and we got to plan for our post exam trip to wherever. ahhhhhh excitement. anwyay thanks ox for sending us back home.. (:

i feel like i've given my best for physics and now i'm gonna start working on my ss. just gotta recap all my points and chapters and i should be ready for it. the contents is already in my head.. just that its bits and pieces everywhere. just gotta connect them all together and voila!

countdown to the o's - 2 days!

2004-10-28T17:56:00.000+08:00

I believe in angels,

The kind that heaven sends.

I am surrounded by angels,

But I call them friends.

amanda : i've known you for a long time now. and for all these times you stood by me, i really want to thank you. you've been nothing less than a perfect listener and you're nothing short of a perfect friend. maybe its because of me that we've drifted so much but i promise i'll make it up alright? (: after the o's we're gonna have all the time in the world to catch up on. ilu.

carolina : you've always been the sweetest person i know. you know, the messages you send me are always the messages that makes me smile. we had some misunderstandings in the past but all is in the past. you're now officially known as my sweetiepie. haha. thanks for always cheering me up when i'm down and always there when i need someone. thanks for everything babe. i do hope to see you soon! muahs*

deborah & mary-anne : my darling tigger and babyroo. i miss you girls like crazy. i miss the times when we would chiong in the rain together with simone just to get over to heeren and the arcadegaming in orchard emerald. despite the fact that i won't be in ij anymore, please don't ever forget me cos i'm never gonna forget you two. the two juniors of mine that i really love. thanks for making my ij life such a great one. you two are simple the best!! smucks*

dick : okay lets see where should i start. i've knwon this guy for about coming 3 years now. like what i said int he testimonial, i've seen him grown from a ahbengcentrepartinghair guy to what he is now. suave and manly - hahaha. he's been a great buddy to me. thanks for always being there to listen to my problems and giving me endless advices. thanks for always being the source of entertainment in tpc/s. and thanks for always making me laugh. last but not least, thanks for being such an awesome friend dude.

gaby : my gaboo's name is here because i love her very much. haha. she use to be my fellow shooter ove rin the primay school and she's the only one from the pri netball team to continue excelling in netball. and now being a WHAOOOOO shooter, i'm like a small fry. but thats not the point. thank you for being such a great friend and thank you for your endless encouragement and motivation to do well for my studies. you'll always be my gaboo who is as hot and gorgeous as ever. winks*

gerry : okay you must be thinking why your name's in here right? haha cos you're my darlingest leggy. oh god, i can't belive i said that. now you'll go all awwwww and rubbish about it. haha okay lets make this a serious one. you've been my friend for all the 10 years in my ij life. we had very fond memories in pri sch together with natalie (whom i miss very very much) and as we got on to secondary school, i only got to be in your class in sec 3 and 4. but nontheless, thanks for being the joker of the class and always bringing a smile on my face. and thanks for being my constant motivation to do well. you're the best leggy! smucks*

huiyi : mei mei, you will enver ever imagine how much your jie here misses you. i miss your crappiness and enthusiasm. i miss you missing me, heehee. i havent seen you for almost like what? freaking 2 years?! i miss you a hell lot dear. i really hope we can get to meet up after my o's and we'll do just that okie? just remember that your jie is always just a call away and i'll always be there if you need me. smucks*

jamie : my dearest bestie aka loupo. wow, 4 years of friendship now hey? i vividly remember in secondaryone, not very good memories. but as we went on to secondary two, great things happened. you're my matchmaker, my cupid. we've created such a close bond together over the past 3 years and i hope this continue to stay strong. you know you'll never ever get outta my mind because you'll always be my darling loupo. smucks*

johanna : heya jo! thanks for always being the bubbly person you always are and always never fail to bring a smile on my face. although sometimes you get really strict and fierce in asking me to not slack and study, i know that deep down, you just mean well for me and wants me to do well. i promise i will!! thanks for being such a great friend and all the best for your o's! *hugs

ling : you'll always be my gossipping partner. as well as one of the most beautiful and refined daintys. you have the hottest gossips in town that you nevetr fail to share with me. whahaha. i feel so damn honoured. life would never be the same without you. you're like the peacemaker of the group, one that hardly gets angry. but i cannot forget the times when i'll always tease you about the grouchy look, etc. oh so cute! haha. babe, you need to know that i'm always just a call away yeah? any problems, look for clarissa! heehee.

michelle : michie sweetums*, i'm sorry for neglecting you for the past year or so. thats a really long time, no? but no fret. i never once did forget you.. (: you're one of the few that has really been a consistent friend in my life. a consistent good friend! we have so many thinsg that we have yet to do together and i promise you we'll do all of that after the o's. babe, we'll make it through together i promise. (:

ox : thanks for always being the funny guy that never fails to crack me up x). and please don't pangseh us next time okay? for being a loyal and good friend, kudos to you. haha cos you came down to accompany us even though you werent even intending to eat. hurry get a girlfriend then we can go on quartracouple dates. whahahaha.

samuel : i will always remember the double date that we had the last time. the stupid movie we watched and the heliumballoon day where wilson just made a fool outta himself. hahaha. thanks for lending me a listening ear whenever i feel troubled. thanks for always giving me advises and how i should tolerate the situations. everyone wants to be happy and i sure do hope that you are! no matter what happens, you'll have a friend in me! heehee.

simone : i've got like tonnes and tonnes of things to say about what we've gone through as friends. i must be one of your problematic friends ever and one that you've shared a helluva rollercoaster ride with. but above all that shit that happened, you'll always be my trinktrink* and the daintys will be nothing without you. work hard and strive towards your dream school. i know you can do it but pleas epromise me one thing, don't ever forget me cos we'll definitely take different paths from next year onwards. remember ah! x)

sonia : oh, sonja is my chacha* - my chacha* who can shake her booty and make you go vavavoom! thanks for being part of my life. thanks for teaching me what true friendship really is. and thank you for making my secondary school life a pleasant one even though i don'y exactly feel that way. out of all my friends out there, you must be one of the cheeriest girl ever. haha with that big wide smile always plastered on your face and not forgetting the occasional cringes that just cracks me up. you're the ultimate bigbaby sonja. i lurb you! x)

vina : i've not known you long enough to be able to know you fully at this point of time. but thank you for always being that cheerful self of yours and making me smile. you're a smart girl so please study hard and get into a good jc next year. i'm sure you'll be able to do it. hmmm, i really do hope we'll continue to be friends even though we all might take different paths next year or we never know what may happen. and once again, thanks for being such a wonderful friend. *hugs

xiang : hellooo! okay i really wanna thank you for always offering to teach me physics. you've been a great bridge khaki yeah? always never fail to come down to join us in a game of bridge whenever we are short of one player. thanks for always being that kind soul who always offers help when anyone's in need. study hard for your o's alright! then you can enter into a good college and poly to further your education. you're a smart boy.. haha. (:

alright that was quite a mouthful. i'm feeling really melancholic all of a sudden. maybe because i know that deep inside i really love my friends a lot. they mean so much to me and i wouldn't know what life would be like without them. they are an essential in my life so that i will not falter and fall but instead, they help pick me up when i stumble. however, if i do leave out any name, i'm really sorry but my brain's so dead from all the typing.

so once again, THANKS GUYS! (: i love every single one of you very very much. and i mean every word i say. as for wilson - i can fill a thousand page and it still will not be enough. baby you know i love you the most yeah? smucks*

2004-10-28T13:11:00.000+08:00

then it rains.
the soft grey sky drifts to the ground;
brown rivulets trickle away;
trickle away, washing sadness down.
weather vanes, weep and turn;
weep and turn.
forgetting in the damp and grey,
that by and by the sun will shine.

in some poetic mood right now. but take note, this poem was taken from a epoem. haha i'm not that flair a writer. why do you think i fail my english all the time? well 3/4 of the time. and plus, my lit sucks just as much. so there you go, a peom taken to describe the weather nowdays.

// rain rain go away come again another day.

so baby left my place this morning for school. then i won't be seeing him till lets say 7-8 at night? he's got a friendly against UWC and the match only starts at 4. so i'll be home till then. hopefully getting down to study. there's so much physics notes going through my head. i hope it stays and don't fade away (oh wow, i think it sorta rhymes! haha).

okay you people should hear my current ringtone. its damn bloody funny. its not a polyphonic ringtne neither is it some rock, pop or jazz tune. its bryan's voice telling me, "clarissa, your phone is ringing" hahaha. okay i think its really cute though.

i wanna go swimming. anyone out there? i think my daintys would definitely think i'm mad esp since the o's are so damn near right now. but hey, you girls went swimming without me earlier this week! haha. i miss swimming and tanning with you girls. okay no fret, after the o's, we'll have plenty of time! woohooo.

haha only people like me and the tpc/s would think of the post exams rather than the o's itself right now. okay wrong mindset. i guess the o's should be my top priority now. so no more lan-gaming till sometime later.

going on a date with my daddy dearest this saturday. the family would be going to catch the midnight show or ladder49. haha guess who's the most excited one among us? you don't even need to think.. wilson low! haha. like what dick says "he wants to be a damn firefighter!" haha but thinking realistically, firefighter in singapore? c'mon. think about the upper serangoon fire station case. whahahaha. such irony for a firestation to get caught on fire. but i'm so excited on saturday and i will not let the woman to spoil my mood. berber, shannon, justin, daddy and baby would do just fine. x)

i really wanted to go running this morning but i slept all the way till 1pm. i'm gonna grow fat if i just keep eating and sleeping and vice versa all the time. never mind, think i'll do that tomorrow lah. anyhow, i think its time for me to sign off. laters!

2004-10-27T11:50:00.000+08:00

goodness gracious GREAT BALLS OF FIRE

baby and i simply loooove this song. haha you should hear him sing it, its damn freaking cute. he sings it with the attitude you know what i mean? with the tongue rolling technic. hahaha.

today's a really cool morning. with the drizzle and heavy rain earlier on. next thing you know, the weather's gonna be so damn humid if the sun starts shining. okay i take that back, it'll prolly rain throughout the day. the weather's really bad. i wonder how i'm gonna go to school in this weather, i'll be stuck in the school till the rain stops man. better remind myself to bring an umbrella. which reminds me again, i haven't returned alwin his umbrella. =D

i hate to be stuck all alone at home. it's like loneliness starts to set in and the worst part is, you are left alone with no food. but thank god i've got money. it'll be like the worst of the worst combination. alone + no food + no money + bad weather = DIE!

( there's always that one person that will always have your heart )

okay i'll admit it. the reason why i crapped a whole load of bullshit is because i'm missing mybaby already. sigh, its only 2 hours since i last saw him and now i'm missing him heaps. he's gone to school for extra maths lesson while me being the lazy me refuse to go down for my extra maths lesson cos i think i'll prolly not listen anyway. i've been doing quite a lot of maths recently and neglecting my other subjects. i just can't seem to get anything regarding ss into my head. its like i was studying ss with my girls the other day and i sswear none of what i intended to study went in. bah this is bad.

okay word of the day:
schtick aka shtick (dictionary.com)
(1) A characteristic attribute, talent, or trait that is helpful in securing recognition or attention.
(2)An entertainment routine or gimmick.

therefore, the word redschtick is a word made up by me lah. i added the red in front simply because *sings* RED IS MY FAVOURITE COLOUR! yeah, thats about it.

life sucks when your exams are nearing and you aren't prepared for it. life also sucks when you're stuck alone at home not knowing what to do. life sucks when you've got absolutely nothing to eat except for maybe instant noodles and digestives?

however, life sparkles when you're being loved.. (:

andrea >>
erm we took it cos we thought it was pretty funky.

carol >>
wow that was so long ago. erm i did dit at causeway jean yip and it was an impromptu thing. it was like a package thing with the hair spa thingy. so all in all it cost me less than 150 bucks.

carol// >>
i wish i was!! boohoo.

* >>
erm yes, thanks. i would really like to be an ordinary so-so person. (:

sonia >>
its work hard and play smart dearie. haha i lurb you! study hard too!

aniv >>
you study hard too! im sure you'll go far!! (:

ling >>
i miss you heaps too GP!

2004-10-26T13:44:00.000+08:00

There's always that one person that will always have your heart

You never see it coming cause you're blinded from the start

Know that you're that one for me, it's clear for everyone to see

Ooh baby, you will always be my boo

Alicia:

I don't know about y'all but I know about us

and uhh it's the only way we know how to rock

(repeat)

Usher: (verse)

Do you remember girl, who was he one who gave you your first kiss

Cause I remember girl who was the one

who said put your lips like this

Even before all the fame and people screaming your name

Girl I was there and you were my baby

Usher: (chorus)

It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)

Now another brothers' taken over but its' still in your eyes (my boo)

Even though we use to argue it's alright (it's alright girl, that's okay)

And if we haven't seen each other in a while, but you will always be my boo

Alicia :

Now if you loved when we were younger you were mine

And when I see from time to time I still feel like, (that's my baby)

And if I see you no matter how I try to hide (I can't hide it)

And even though there's another man who's in my life, you will always be my boo

Alicia: (verse)

Yes I remember boy, cause after we kissed I could only think about your lips

Yes I remember boy, the moment I knew you were the one I could spend my life with

Even before all the fame and people screaming your name

I was there and you were my baby..

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i love this song. its been stuck in my head for the past few days. and i've been listening and singing it it for the past few days as well. oh well, two of my few favorite artists that i really enjoy listening to is singing a duo. how can it not be good? haha.

baby's off to buy our brunch once again. and its raining cats and dogs outside. its been pouring like mad the past week. on off showers that really spoils my mood at times. is the monsoon right now, right? ahh shucks. i hope our trip ain't cancelled cos of the damn monsoon. i wanna go to tioman. i wanna go to tioman with the tpc/s. hahaha. it'll be damn fun i know.

so today's a tuesday. time really flies when you're sitting for a big exam that particular year. its like a blink of an eye and tada, the big dreadful o's is right at your doorstop. or rather, the big o's is approaching in less than a week's time. got to get down to some serious practising of emaths later. vinson's gonna kill me if i don't finish my work. bleah.

i've been having a pink watch on my wrist for the past few days. haha this is because the other day when we went out for dinner with dad, he asked me why i wasn't wearing the watch he got for me. i didn't want to say i didn't like the colour so i just left it in my cupboard. so now, i feel really bad and i've decided to wear and slowly forge a reltionship with the watch. and as queer as it sounds, i'm starting to actually like it. haha. its twohundredbucks okay. i can shop till i drop with that amount. haiyah.. this is how i please my daddy and ends up liking it myself. (:

okay lunch time.
laters !

2004-10-26T01:02:00.000+08:00

lets get it started

back at wilson's right now. today was a fun-filled day for me. thanks to the company i had of course - my darlingest daintys, baby and the tpc/s haha.

went down to novena to meet up with my daintys at california. had the best banana smoothiethere and the ambience was good; just that the seats were a tad too crammed up. but its okay, the company was great but however, we did not get down to much studying. had so much to catch up on. with simone's rebonded hair, more photo snappings (well actually only one), and plenty more nonsensical conversations and last but not least, window shopping and magic wok!! whahaha, all these make me a truly joyful girl.

then after a call from baby, i took a train down to the airport to meet him. so we headed for popeyes and i took the time to read through a view from the bridge. although nothing exactly got into my head, i felt quite satisfied for once. waited for the rest to come down - dick, vina, sam, xiang and ox. ate and headed down to ox's place.

his house is pretty damn big. its i think 4 storeys high? anyway, he's toilet is coolio to the max. haha auto ligh-on and if no one told me there's a toilet in his room, i'll never find out. the door of the toilet is hidden under another door of his wardrobe. and built in aircon to the ceiling?! haha. yeah thats about it. daidee and cs and mahjong was the main highlight. and thanks to xiang's brother, we got home without having to spend money on cab. many thanks!

i'm feeling really sticky and yucky now. better get going and freshen up a bit and off i go to complete my tuition homework. damn lah! i've got tuition tomorrow.

okay, thats all folks.

2004-10-25T01:25:00.000+08:00

SEE!! he's not human!! he's a PIG!!! a pig that i love so damn bloody much. a pig that doesn't snore, but quacks. teehee* baby ilu.

lan today was funfun. it was the battle of the duocouples and the battle of the sexes. whahahaha. the battle of the sexes was a blast in italy but as we went on to dust2, haha major thrashing. oh wells. and final conclusion: axis suck balls.

think i'm finally gonna meet my daintys tomorrow. i think i'm missing out a hell lot and we need to do some catching up! heehee. so i hope tomorrow's study session would be fruitful and so will the bonding session. i really do hope we can get down with serious mugging cos its only a week away. wooooo, scary. then popeye's for dinner. whoopie.

ILOVEYOUBABY!!!!!

2004-10-24T17:50:00.000+08:00

it was a terrible morning but all is good now. i love my baby even though at times he gets me really agitated and pissed off. i love him even though disappointment sets in sometimes. i love him although he can be really stubborn and sarcastic. and even though he pulls a long face at times, he still is the cutest human alive. of course what! he's my darlingesteveilmojojojopiggishbabyboy! x) smucks*

yesterday was deluxe. has dinner at crystal jade kitchen with baby and family in ps. after which we followed uncle alex to go purchase a new handphone in the starhub roadshow. then we headed to macdonalds for supper. so all in all, the day was like a major pigging out day. but it was great. then we played "what is the time mr wolf?" with bryan. hahahaha. he runs really fast when he's being chased. and i'm not kidding about that - a future sprinter man.

watched 2 dvds for the past 2 days. the best bet and new police story. well, the best bet was super duper lame but it wasn't that bad. cracked me up quite a bit. new police story was as good as the first time i watched it. uncle alex bought a lot of dvds back. so i have plenty of time to complete watching all. woooohooooo! vcds and dvds make me a happy girl.

sam >>oh no, we're all turning into pigs.

anonymous >>erm, okay? but honestly, i still don't think you're making sense. being confident does not exactly mean you dare to pose for a picture. neither does it make sense that if you aren't a confident person, you'll shun the camera.

sonia >>yeah, too bad i didn't catch sg idol last thurs!!! anyway swimming soon i promise! smucks*

____ (: >>that's henna tattoo.. not a real one lah! haha do you think my sister would tattoo such a big ahbengdragon?? =D and yes, it was done in thailand.

dalun >>yes! haha it all started when i began watching "are you afraid of the dark?" at a tender age. stupid clowns!!!!!

blah >>thanks (:

2004-10-22T17:22:00.000+08:00

as you can see, i'm clearly bored. so bored that i can blog 3 times in the span of 5 hours. did a tad bit of my tuition homework just now and right now, i just wanna relax and chill. it was intensive maths for like an hour. and soon, i'll be leaving to meet wilson for dinner and dick and vina for lan. then back home doing more maths and ss. wow!

i miss the thailand trip. and i miss uncle david the most. he was our tour guide and he's damn cute. everytime everyone of us falls asleep in the van and when we reach a particular destination, he'll never fail to go "cling cling cling (x2), morning call!". haha and he was the one who taught me how to speak simple and basic thai language. last but not least, i miss thailand's food. i'll never grow bored of it.

ahhhhh speaking of which, i haven't eaten anything since morning. well, actually i did. i had like two pieces of digestives and done. thats all. i'm so damn hungry now. i can't wait for dinner. sesame chicken from kovan.. oooh yummy.

oh-kay. i'm gonna call mybabyboy now.

2004-10-22T13:25:00.000+08:00

somewhere out there

>> spinning : boyz ii men - four seasons of loneliness

i really wanted to sleep in longer but my tummy was just so against me and it was churning and rumbling non-stop, ouch it hurt so much. so i had to give in to my awfully painful stomach and drag my ass outta bed to go to the damn bathroom. and now, i'm here using the computer, blogging, and not studying.

speaking about sleeping, baby and i slept at 5am earlier this morning cos sam and dick gave us a call at about 1ish asking us to go downstairs for a chat cos they were night cycling. i tell you, they were crazy! then baby and i borrowed nick's bike and all of us cycled to 7-11 to buy the instant mashed potato. then we settled down at 240 and chatted till 5am. wah kao, i was so sleepy by th time i reached home but i must admit we had a fun time talking and laughing.

and the best thing was baby had to wake up at 6 this morning to head down to school. and of course we kinda overslept and he woke up at 650! haha so he took a cab to school instead. you should see his reaction when he woke up, so damn adorable! heehee. baby i lovey wovey you.

thank God its friday! friday just seems so relaxed all the time. its gonna be some studying then lan at night. baby has to attend his coach's wedding in dover after school. so i should use that time to complete my tuition homework and study maybe my physics or ss. oh yes, tuition that day went pretty okay. he was contemplating between a k700i or the nokia 7610 so i told him to try k700i. haha. and he gave us a hell lotta work to complete by next week. die.

went for dinner with my family without mommie yesterday. had edo sushi which was okay lah. not allt hat fantastic cos i prefer sakae! haha i had a lot a lot a lot of sashimi. and i ordered maggie tasting ramen which was simply awful and baby had to finish it up for me. heehee. then we all went to play pool and arcade after that. i tell you, my dad is damn bloody goood in pool. he does his tricks and "adventure" playing just because he was playing with us. =D

ukk - erm i think it came about cos we were trying to help ling think of a blog address then i came up with dainty-smtg. so after that, i started calling them my daintys. x)

amanda - everyone was there!! haha sonia was there too! damn! why didn't i bump into any of you girls.

bleahh - i guess its because i didn't catch the start when the oc started playing and now, i don't think i'll ever catch up with whats going on. so its love or money for me.

2004-10-22T13:16:00.000+08:00

1 MINUTE AGO: just heard a loud thunder

1 HOUR AGO: just woke up

1 DAY AGO: i had tuition

1 WEEK AGO: i had my incorrigible aunt comign to visit

1 YEAR AGO: i was playing like mad

1 YEAR FROM NOW: i'll be happily celebrating my 17th bday

1 WEEK FROM NOW: the dreaded o's

1 DAY FROM NOW: i wanna bake cupcakes!

1 HOUR FROM NOW: study maybe?

1 MINUTE FROM NOW: erm, probably still working on this?

I HURT: myself sometimes.

I LOVE: everything beauitful - including my baby.

I HATE: studying

I FEAR: clowns

I FEEL: like hugging my baby right now

I HIDE: my bro's disgusting filthy doggie pencilcase

I NEED: to be a more confident person

I THINK: of why shit happens.

I MISS: my daintys.

I BELIEVE: in God.

2004-10-21T18:53:00.000+08:00

ever felt like you were dreaming,
just to find that you're awake?

today started off brilliant. it was the cool breezy rainy morning that makes you just wanna snooze in bed and cuddle up with your loved one. and that was exactly what i did. he hugged me to sleep last night and this afternoon.. i just love being loved. then it ended with me being a grouchy devil and scolding him for no reason. i'm so sorry, i should have known and not force you. i should have been a little mor reasonable and i should be a little more sensitive to your needs. sigh, sorry.

going for dinner soon with daddy, berber, justin, nnon and wilson. now i ask myself again, why can't i be a teeny wee bit more reasonable. you wanna know how bad a girlfriend i am? well, i'm forcing my boyfriend to go for dinner with me when i jolly well know that he hates japanese food. and i mean FORCE. yes. uggghhhhhhh.

didn't do anything productive today but sleep. i don't knwo why but i felt so damn jaded today. it is either the weather or i'm just plain sick of studying. but i'm gonna make myself study tonight after watching tv. i'm booked in front of the tv screen from 8pm-11pm. so after that, it'll be the mugging session. its singapore idol, the champion and for love or money. ahahaha, i'm such a sucker for reality tv shows.

okay i'm off now. daddy just called.

2004-10-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

when i fall in love

it will be forever

shopping can be really exhausting. just got home from suntec with mommy, nnon and berber. mom and ber took a day's off from work so we can have a get-together. ahaha, so sweet right. anyway like i said, i'm so damn tuckered out now although we didn't shop much. mom and ber were actually helping me search for something to wear for prom but somehow, there are no nice gowns and i look terrible in pants. i'm still keen on wearing pants though. its so much more convenient and its much cheaper. they either say i look too girly in the dress or the i don't look like i've got a shape in pants. bleah.

anyway lucnh today was good. after much brainstorming on where to eat, we decided to settle for food junction. we were thinking of eating la mian but we didn't in the end. instead, we ordered like tons of different foods and pigged out. the nasi padang is damn bloody good. oh yes, and so was the almond jelly. hahahaha. x)

gotta make my way to baby's place soon. i think he should have finished training by now as well. so we'll both reach home at 7pm sharp. goodie. off i go. better do some physics before i sleep tonight cos today was just so unproductive. shopping is never good.

sher >>
it was taken in thailand, bangkok.

sonia >>
ahahaha, i'm sorry my dear chacha*, but i slept so early i forgot to set my alarm clock and i even wore my contacts to sleep. can you imagine! haha sorry babe, we'll play bridge the next time alright! wooohoooo!

carolina >>
i heard chem sucked. well, bio was kinda alright and physics was alright too. not confident of getting really good marks but i'm sure you'll pass. (:

sam >>
oh no! we're all turning into pigs. big fat pigs.

____ (: >>
erm basically, you pour cold/tap water over some honey on a dish and shak it for about a minute. if the honey resembles that of the bee hive's nest (you know the checked stuffs?), it's pure honey. i hope you understand what i mean. (:

2004-10-19T14:39:00.000+08:00

chance made us SISTERS, hearts made us friends >> my berber for life. smucks*

2004-10-19T11:39:00.000+08:00

reach for the light

you might touch the sky

i'm such a pig, haha. after dinner at crystal jade yesterday, which was by the way damn good, baby and i made our way to his place and slept from 8pm till 11am this morning. woohoo. 15 whole hours sleeping like logs man. and, i didn't even have the time to take my contacts off last night so basically, i slept with it through the night and only realised it this morning. haha my right eye was so red and itchy. i had my dosage of almond jelly last night too, so all is good. (:

baby's off to buy us breakie now. we're having pratas and mmm* i can't wait to dig in. my stomach's rumbling a little. been eating a hell lot these few days. i better start exercising or i'll really grow fat. mommie thinks i'm gaining quite a lot of weight recently especially on my arms. and since diet so cannot work for me, i'll have to settle for exercising. i hope the o's ends quickly then i'll have all the time in the world to do anything i want.

you know, i love all sammie cheng's movies although i hardly ever consider watching chinese films in the theatre unless i've got no choice. movies such as lion roars, my left eye sees ghosts, jacky chan films, stephen chow films, summer holidays, and the list goes on. these shows are darn good, well at least to me. x)

okie can you believe it? i'm actually gonna have tuition tomorrow! haha. its like the first time after 6-7 years man. its actually today but the tuition teacher postponed it so tomorrow it shall be. so he's coming over to baby's place tomorrow and i'm gonna stay over another night. haha so fun, gonna see the studious side of baby. heehee.

currently
bloated from breakie
brandless boxers / guess big tee
spinning: boyz II men - bended knee
loving my baby.

2004-10-18T15:18:00.000+08:00

this love has taken its toll on me

actually, i really feel very empty without my handphone. brought it out of the house this morning and only then did i remember that handphones are strictly not allowed in school today. so i passed my phone over to wilson to bring it back to his place. mybabyboo sent me to school today. i love him so much. he wakes up so early in the morning just to send me to school. and he makes me lie on his shoulder to sleep just for a mere 5 minutes waiting for the bus. and he makes me smile from cheek to cheek all the time - he's a god-sent, he's my angel.

oh yeah, i think i did soemthing really bad today. i think i got sonja addicted to bridge. haha yes, although it is somewhat an 'intellectual' game that is said to stimulate one's mind, its still not good to get addicted right? haha especially during this "crucial" period of time, don't ya'll think? anywya had fun with my girls during the quarantined period today. spent freaking 3half hours doing nothing but playing bridge. it was really pretty damn unproductive but hey, we had lotsa fun avoiding being caught by the teachers and laughing at silly sonja. hehee i love you girls so damn bloody much. smucks*

today's the 18th which means i have exactly 2 weeks more till my first paper starts. damn! why did i even agree to retake my chinese. now i freaking hell have to study for it but i think i will not. sometimes, people like me tend to make the wrong decisions and regret it only when the time is nearing. bleah. better get going with the studying. i'm always syaing that but nothing gets into my head all the time. i should have a time schedule and hopefully i'll follow it. but i doubt it. hahaha.

POPEYE'S tomorrow. woohoo! i'm skipping my english lesson tomorrow because i think its redundant for me to go anyway. the crescent's english prelim paper was pretty easy to handle. why can't the olevels be the same. i wish. anyway, i hope baby can make it to popeye's tomorrow since i'm going to the airport with mandy wandy. good food coming up. yum*

maybe i'll drop by baby's place later to get my phone. in the meantime, here are some replies to my comments and tags before i leave to hunt for food. x)

sara >> hey, thanks for your comments. i just thought i should change my layout to something different. haha its so cute right? x) take care.

cherie >> whatever lah. c&c - what the hell is that? some commando command shit right? haha all the same lah. you build stupid towers or train heroes or whatever. so boring! CS!!!

carol >> time will fly in no time babe. just hang on there and soon you'll be reunited with your darling wyn. heehee* i miss you babe. come back soon! :)

simone >> haha, yeah my daintytrink* can also do it.

gaby gaboo >> yah lah MRS KOH!! =D i'll study hard but you must too okay? you know seriously i miss netball so so much. standing beside you or playing with you will be so damn paiseh now. malumalu lah. sobs.

ling >> haha i know, so cute, like me! =D

amanda >> thanks dear, i'll miss you but we'll keep in contact no matter what yeah? smucks*

kelly >> HEYYYYY!!!! i've been trying to contact you for eons. i miss you. i miss reading your blog and i miss chatting with you. re-add me on msn okie my long lost friend? (:

2004-10-17T13:39:00.000+08:00

everything i do;

i do it for you

when i say i hate my auntie, i really mean HATE!!! i hate it when she appears cos she bring me so much inconvenience and frustration. i wanna scream and scream, and scream. ahhhhh. urgggghhhh. aarghhhh.

okay, just finished watching balto with mandy, bryan and baby on the LD. we've been watching it ever since we finished our breakie and oh man, what an inspiring animated movie. i give it 4 out of 5 stars. anyway today's a sunday, so my dreaded practical exam would be on tomorrow. getting the heebie-jeebies indeed but i hope i don't fumle with the equipments tomorrow. i'm gonna give it my best shot. studied a teeny wee bit after coming back from kovan yesterday.

which reminds me, yesterday mandy and i brought bryan over to my place. then bryan managed to pyscho me to give him my brother's yoyo. haha he's so cute. they waited for me to showr and prepare myself until uncle alex and auntie cindy came to fetch us out. so i went shopping with wilson's family without him. haha, it wasn't that bad actually just that i felt a lil paiseh but not as much as last time. then at around 9ish, uncle alex drove mandy and i to kovan to meet up with sam, nick, vina and baby for lan. i just have to say IMREALLYSORRYBABY!

by the time we got home was already past midnight so i managed to go through some of my practical bio notes and i realised i forgot to bring my practical physic notes over to baby's place so oh well, i'll go through them tonight. better rmb to bring the important documnents tmr.

so much has happened over the past few days. things weren't going well for baby and i but guess what? we've overcame all the obstacles and now, we're doing better than ever. i never knew that my baby would be such a romantic babyboy cos he always has his tactics and ways to assure me of my doubts and tell me he loves me. baby i love you too and..

HAPPY 32 MONTHS! x)
i'm loving you for eternity.